melancholy and sadness are the start of doubt...
i'm a good person. why can't i find a good person to be good with me?
right now, i feel like there's no person to understand me. i guess i'm being melodramatic. but really i'm so sad. why does this happen? maybe if i wasn't nice. maybe if i didn't care. maybe if i wasn't so fucking stupid.
life can be so shitty. i fucking hate it. i want to go away. i want a new life away from all this. i want to just disappear.