December 2008: A Christmas Wish
If there is a moment where you can be a little selfish and get away with it Christmas is the time.
I understand you need to think of others, and I usually put others before myself. In fact most of the time I put others before myself and I am really to the point of pure annoyance with the rest of the taking world.
I've been so busy helping everyone else I seem to have lost myself, and now I feel I don't belong anywhere either. My mom's house goes on without me. My father's house goes on with out me. Even my boyfriend has a life and friends without me.
People who have called me friends in the past also seem needed me to be strong for them, but never allowed me to need them . . . they were just to busy with their lives.
I have a very interesting Christmas wish: I want to know who I am and where exactly I belong. If someone could tell me that I would appreciate it.