Drama at home
The Epic at my house
Soap Opera: As my stomach Churns Part 1
2/12/08
The Soap-Opera I get to personally witness. . .
I've briefly explained before in a blog or two that my brother likes a confused, spoiled chick 600 miles away from him. He got introduced on the phone by a friend of his (or ours depends on my mood). Anyway my brother had been talking to this caked-on-make-up, bitchy-chick since before Christmas. My overly emotional and clueless (I say that out of love) brother spend all of his own Christmas money on gifts and shipping for this ungrateful chick as my brother doesn't recall her saying that she was thankful.
(First sign: Ungrateful)
Then later on my brother and his friend were going to plan a trip to visit her and her sister (my brother friend was going and knew her sister). However there were money and work issues that prevented them from doing that. (I hate to admit this, but I am glad they didn't get to go because my brother would have been embarrassed and disappointed. I love my brother, but there are times I think he just doesn't take care of himself. If he wants to get a girl go get some dental taken care of first as he has some seriously chipped and brittle teeth.) She said he didn't care; because he couldn't get down there, and wouldn't tell him explain the situation.
(Second sign: No understanding)
Then she had been playing games of "I love you" and "I hate you" on the phone. She would be mad at him for stupid reasons like: he ran out of things to say, he couldn't call her at the right time, or he didn't say "I love you" enough or too much.
(Third sign: Mind games)
I know my brother is way more emotional than I could ever imagine, but he is one of the most honest people I know, and she try to say he was cheating on her and lying about it. She doesn't want to believe my brother.
(Fourth sign: No trust)
Her sister was saying that she was also talking to someone else. She was also losing interest in my brother and picking fights.
(Fifth sign: Lost interest).
I am glad that my brother didn't go to see her around Valentine's Day just to find out she had someone else local in her life. However his friend believes my brother is over reacting by being depressed and frustrated as he never even met the girl. His friend also feel if my brother meets her that they and work things out. (Honestly, I think they should just both move on. My brother's friend just doesn't want to travel alone.)
Sunday: My brother's friend and my brother had a disagreement about the feelings of this girl, and exactly how my brother was supposed to feel: First of all, you don't tell my emotional brother how to feel and secondly: there was so much tension in the house you could cut it with a knife, it was crazy.
(On a side note: Then my brother and our friend had a small frustration in which my brother went out and bought cigarettes, and I did something I hadn't done in a while. . . I smoked (just one.) I had been craving it for a while as I've been writing all week. The cigarette did nothing for me: it didn't even taste good. )
My brother called her yesterday to discover she really did have another guy.
My brother doesn't need a high maintenance, immature, ungrateful bitch that would just play with head games instead of telling him her real feelings. I hope my brother find a nice girl, woman, someone who will treat him decently with respect.
That was the Soap-Opera: As My Stomach Gurgles: the tale of my emotional roller-coaster of a brother (episodes 16-24 soon to be on DVD--> just kidding).
Epic at my House Part 2
As the stomach Churns: the soap Opera in my house Part 2
3/14/2008
Well there is a guy who is only temporarily staying in my house. He tried to be a player, but he wasn’;t a very good one. He lets his emotions get in the way . . . as he uses the line "I love you" like cheap candy.
I actually thought he was a decent guy, except the more I learn about him I realize that all these girls who date him only see what he wants them to see as he is afraid to show someone who he really is. I understand why because he wants perfection . . . he wants a robot version of a girlfriend instead of what is really there. (I can understand that as I want too much in a guy and that is why I am single, but that is another story.)
Anyway I do believe that what comes around goes around as over the past 5 months he hasn’;t given us a dime for living here. He’;ll got off and stay he wants a new place and that this place is awful, but he’;ll got and buy a new video game instead of save money for a new place. He also gets on my nerves when he wants me to get him something when I see nothing in return. (I just to be patient, but please rather see him get his own stuff than have him give empty gestures. he claims he is my friend, but we do nothing together.) He eats all of our food, used all of our laundry detergent and doesn’;t offer to help out in anyway.
Anyway, back to the soap opera . . . he was going on with this one girl for a while at the same time as the other girl. He thought we were stupid or something, we just didn’;t say anything, because it wasn’;t our business until he made it our business by telling us to cover for him. Fuck that shit, I hope that all the girls find out and nail his ass. He doesn’;t understand how great he has it: good job, video games anytime he wants, good money, nice car as he can get out whenever he wants, he has a lot of good friends that he can hang out with. He is only hurting himself by trying to be a wannabe player. I thought it was just two and now I found out it was more than two.
I just to think he was a great and decent guy, but now I just see him as desperation, pathetic jerk who doesn’;t listen. The entertaining part of everything was just earlier he was thinking he was all high and mighty, but now I know he was standing in a hole he created.
Hypocrite
Rebekah © 2008
He claims my life is low
As he brings me down
But he always wants coffee
Whenever I seem to be around
He doesn’;t want to be seen
With me
Why should I care,
If I am mixed in his female sea?
He gets frustrated
When his phone never stops going off
Common sense says
"Turn the damn thing off!"
He has girls to left
He had girls to the right
Especially when he smiles
In the middle of the night
All I see when he takes
I never see him give
And yet when I offer to help
He tell me it’;s no way to live
I cook and bake
And he eats my food
But when I ask to go
He says he’;s not in the mood
There are some things
He doesn’;t want to live with
But I just think
He’s a hypocrite
Epic at my House Part 3 and 4
3/31/2008
Well, let’s see my mom and I are currently looking for jobs, but I am frustrated as my brother and his friend keep killing our cordless phone. My brother’;s friend was supposed have gotten another cell phone, but did he get a cell phone, no he got a PS2.
Then the other day there was a phone war. . . damn it all I wanted to do was write and listen my music, but I couldn’;t do that because it was too loud. And yet my brother and his friend yelling at a damn phone isn’;t loud. . . what the hell? They were dealing with immature girls anyway.
Something else bugs me. . . my brother is trying to get a girl who obviously doesn’;t want him like that as she is still going out with another guy. My brother has his heart on his sleeve and is totally into her. . . her name comes out of his mouth every 10 seconds. She is very materialistic, rich, and extremely high maintaince, and I know my brother can’;t handle to keep up with it. She is also very young and I’;m sure had no idea what she really wants (considering she keeps breaking up with guys for the smallest of reasons. . .) A part of me wants to tell him it’;s not worth it, and another part of me knows he needs to go through this. . . I just don’;t want to see him get hurt. It’;s like I can see the future, and it’;s a painful one.
I believe my brother’;s friend is all talk. . . he say he wants to move out, but I don’;t see him looking for a house, apartment or even a hole in the wall. The reason why he wants to move is that everyone is completely annoyed with him. . . damnit, I am passed annoyed. I was annoyed in December, now I just want him and his picky tiny ass to go.
He actually had the nerve to invite me to go him and his friend play som music (they want to start a band), what really pissed me off was that I gave him the band idea months, and that he didn’t invite me until my brother made a big deal about it. (The worst part is we still claims we are friends. . . we live in the same house, so it’;s just housemates, I guess. . . *rolls my eyes.*) I honestly believe he never wanted to be friends with me. (It really hurts since I’ve known him since the second grade.)
I hope they move so I can end my watch his sickening soap opera and get on with my life and be able to use the phone.
Part 4
4/16/2008
Well, there are some updates since I've written on the soap opera in my house. . . My brother actually got some brains and is lookking somewhere for the love of his life after this girl he liked said she was engaged to another guy.
I don't know what say about the other guy. . . I think my brother can do so much better the personality department at least. Anyway, my brother's friend is up to his old trick or least he keep sneaking out like his is. Look my theory is if you are innocent that you don't need to sneak around and hide so much. He even got his cell phone so he can screen all of his calls.
I just hope he doesn't hurt any other girls like he had admitted in the past. It's frustrating to see this guy get all of the girls, but he treats them like crap. What the hell?
Myspace Drama
I hope the drama will soon.
May. 21, 2008
It started as my brother allowed who I thought was an old friend to stay with my family, but after he stayed with us for while, I discovered he was a drama queen in a male's body. Anyway, he was only supposed to stay a few weeks, a month at the most . . . stayed with us for 8 months rent free.
He caused drama in our houses and would invite several people over without asking . . . he also would used and treat women badly. . . he even only used me for coffee like a maid and secretary. He claimed he was my friend, but he never hung out with me unless we were home. It was almost as if he was ashamed of me.
Anyway, he cheated on his girlfriend and throw my brother into the drama, and that is when I stopped being friends with him. I even deleted his page off myspace account, but he didn't notice. So began to blog to allow my friend know what was going on in my life . . . this guy was most of my drama.
Then an old friend of friend wanted me to be friends with his wife while he was oit of town, so I did. I tried helping her out, but she told everyone about my blogs, making them worst tham they are. . . She started drama just because I didn't hang out with her.
Here was the lastest blog. . .
I think my "soap opera as stomach turns* " has been canceled. . . .My brother's friend finally moved out. He was so rude and he doesn't respect women. The really sad thing is that my brother and him were supposed to moved out together, but he moved out not caring about my brother at all.
He had most of his stuff moved into his car last night . . . My brother was just disguested. My brother and his friend were supposed to go on this little trip to see some female friends of theirs, but my brother's friend has spent all his money and couldn't go. My brother is crushed as his friend thinks nothing of it.
I am honestly glad that my brother's friend left, because he was causing way too much drama. He thinks every girl out there likes him, which is a bunch of shit. I think am the only female that doesn't like him; it's is because I know what he is really like.
He actually wanted to know if we would miss him. . . no what I miss is a working computer and a nice DVD player with a good sound quality from his huge speakers. He plugged my computer and then something else happened when he plugged his computer as now my computer which I worked so hard for is a freakin paper weight. I am left with memories of female drama and paperweight. (He also still owes me twenty bucks. Once he pays me we are done.)
He claims he'll come over and see us. . . and personally I don't care if he does or not.
The only thing now is that it will be quieter at our house that is all. It will give me too much time to think. . . is that really a good idea?
* As My Stomach Churns was a blog I wrote on myspace, but I will post on here later.
The thing I've learned is you can't trust anyone, especially females from my past.
Lack of Expression
May 23, 2008
The other day I wrote a blog. . . I didn't mention names. . . I never do. It saves my ass and everyone else. I wrote about some issues in my house. I had it on friends only in which only friends can read. I had someone who I thought was a friend tell someone else what I secretly felt about them. If I wanted that person to read it I would have posted the blog as a public blog.
The worst thing of this was the person never realized that I taken them off my friend's list in March. So now I just deleted the snitch who I believes used me to get into the pants of a person who I currently cannot stand.
It really upsets me that I have feeling that I feel I need to just get out and I feel because of those two people I can't express myself. I also realized that only 1 out of every 10 people you can really trust. It's really sad.
I tried helping people out, and being there, but once I finally get a social life and everyone uses me. . . I give up.
Careful words
July 14, 2008
I've been on Myspace before Myspace actually hit off. I liked it because I could blog, talk to friends, express myself, and anything else this site offers from music to playing games to watching videos.
Then one day more and more people got on it and this site got huge. . . congrads Tom. When you go to the library at least 20 out of 30 computers had myspace on the monitors. Everyone who is anyone is on myspace. (Unfortunately, that also includes those who are afflicted and offended by just words.)
I feel that I have to go to other sites to blog, because too many people know me and will snitch to everyone my own feelings about something they truly know nothing about. Well, this just proves that there really is only about 1, maybe 2% of the people out there you can trust. If you are that 1 or 2% good for you, and keep it that way.
I am going to end this part of the blog here as I have another place I will finish this blog, where I know words, especially truthful words will not offend anyone. Where they appreciate me expressing myself.
Well I am going to finish my blog here . . .
Today a good friend of mine, who is like a brother to me, is having his one year wedding aniversary. . . I hope he is truly happy. I am just upset, because it was his wife who was the one who snitched on me. She befriended me and then told an ex-friend of mine that I had written a blog totally bashing him, which wasn't entirely true. Yes, I wrote a blog, but no it did not bash him. She told him that I bash him to keep me out of the gossip as they were in the middle of the fooling around behind my good friend's back.
My friend who is like a brother to me say he trusts my ex-friend, but I know better. I know how he treats girls, in fact he lived with my brother and I for several months and I personally witnessed how he treats girls. I am just playing it cool and staying out of the way, but I just don't want to see my good friend get hurt.
The things that really gets me is I have friends on Myspace that read my blogs just to see what is going on in my life, and I feel like I can't post my own feelings and updates without someone snitching. Hince the title Careful Words . . .
(Note: I love this site as I know I can rant and vent, and it's okay. I really try not to offend anyone.)