The Giver: This is who I am
This is who I am. . .
First of all, I had to write this blog. The world needs to know who I am.
I am either content with the simplest of things such as a new notebook, a working pen, a good song and my favorite soda-pop or I always working on something. (Then I easily obsessed over my problems until I can get them solved. . . I have lost sleep over things that are solved in just a simple discussion or just a few steps. . . It’s crazy, but it’s me.)
I am usually a cheap date . . . I would go out anywhere as long as I don’t have to cook or should I say clean. (I love to cook, but I hate to clean the mess. I love to cook for others. Cooking is artistic expression to me.) ßThe reason why I say this is to prove it doesn’t take much to please me.
However the main point I want to get across is I do not make friends like I used to, but I will bend backwards to make and keep my friends and family happy. I am one of the people that it makes me happy to know I can help others and make others happy. . . I am spoiler, a people pleaser, a selfless giver. (Many people of my past said I do too much and don’t ask for enough in return. They think I am crazy, dump, stupid, moronic for this. However I just like knowing that there are happy people around me.)
I have had a connection with a dear friend of mine. I cannot describe it. . . it’s surpasses time. This is one of the reasons why I brought this blog up. Every time I have a dream with him in it (they are innocent); there is always drama going on with him at the same time. . . I don’t know what that means. . . I just know I was lying on my couch today at 9 in the morning and something told me that I had to get online. (It was just like I thought, there was drama. . . I just hope he has gotten some sleep.)
Anyone curious about my dream: http://www.dreamjournal.net/journal/index.cfm?username=Rebekah1213&dream_id=166240
I know this sounds completely stupid to some, but I just known this guy a few months, and I sure I could go back to my normal life without him if the fates were to tell me by going out of his life, he would find is ultimate happiness, I would go. (I wouldn’t say that it wouldn’t hurt, but that is how much I want him to be happy.)
(For those who have read my previous blogs, yes I do have a boyfriend and he is friends with this guy as well. I love my boyfriend and wish him happiness too, but I just happened to have a brotherly, spiritual connection to this other guy. I just want to see him smile, be happy and want to wake up every morning. I want him to have something, someone to look forward to. Even if he doesn’t have much hope right now, I have hope for him.)
I am just the type of person who wants to see other people happy and content, and I do NOT care what other people think about that!