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there used to be people who could tell when i'm feeling shitty. now no one does, or worse, if they do, they don't give a rats ass. i try to help people, i try to do something nice sometimes...shit.
i don't know why i feel so crappy...maybe its cause i know i'm leaving. i keep thinking that people really aren't going to miss me or at all care that i'm gone. i know some will, but i don't know...
there's no where i want to be right now. i don't even mean that figuratively, but literally too. i don't want to be alone, and i don't want to be downstairs cause of someone, and i don't want to be upstairs becacuse of someone...i want to cry with people that understand and i can't. i want to crawl in a hole and wait there til next friday when i can go home and enjoy the holidays and not be around this SHIT all the time. i'm so sick of it and i'm so FUCKING angry. so angry...
i want someone to understand that...but no one does...i feel uterly alone
i don't know why i feel so crappy...maybe its cause i know i'm leaving. i keep thinking that people really aren't going to miss me or at all care that i'm gone. i know some will, but i don't know...
there's no where i want to be right now. i don't even mean that figuratively, but literally too. i don't want to be alone, and i don't want to be downstairs cause of someone, and i don't want to be upstairs becacuse of someone...i want to cry with people that understand and i can't. i want to crawl in a hole and wait there til next friday when i can go home and enjoy the holidays and not be around this SHIT all the time. i'm so sick of it and i'm so FUCKING angry. so angry...
i want someone to understand that...but no one does...i feel uterly alone