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its two in the morning and i couldnt feel anymore anxious
i would probably take medicine if i had it to make me not feel like this. taking medicine is a chore.
i dont understand why other people can ask off and it be fine but for me its pulling teeth
for the 5th i was almost not allowed. which is ridiculous. ask other people to stay i asked off first. they know they can manipulate me, especially since i love my job and i love money.
and jason forgets to inform me oh... 311 is on a tuesday. oh thats right you asked off the 5th, then took your weeks paid the 13th through the 20th and then asked off again the 22nd.. but thats for a concert.. so its not really legit.
if jason hadnt of already paid for the tickets i would say i couldnt go, but theyre seats and more expensive.
im going to bargain working that wednesday and thursday(which the thursday isnt necessary) but i still feel incredibly anxious. i know brendas response. bitching. i wish i had thought of this today when rebecca was working. shes very reasonable and i cut her kids hair so its easier to make a deal.. and i only work with her on sundays and next i'll be off. so im pretty much forced to talk to brenda.
its kinda ridiculous that heidi has taken two and a half weeks, and im stressing over taking an additional day to the one ive taken, that i havent "earned". i get my weeks paid, thats earned i got a raise when noone else did and was rising star. so i think asking off the 22nd and then working on my days off would be reasonable but damn im stressing.
and i will be damned if one of these apprentices that are going on the floor, or the new girls, get a station before i do. fuck that fuck them and their shit.
i get scarlets station, end of story.
i would probably take medicine if i had it to make me not feel like this. taking medicine is a chore.
i dont understand why other people can ask off and it be fine but for me its pulling teeth
for the 5th i was almost not allowed. which is ridiculous. ask other people to stay i asked off first. they know they can manipulate me, especially since i love my job and i love money.
and jason forgets to inform me oh... 311 is on a tuesday. oh thats right you asked off the 5th, then took your weeks paid the 13th through the 20th and then asked off again the 22nd.. but thats for a concert.. so its not really legit.
if jason hadnt of already paid for the tickets i would say i couldnt go, but theyre seats and more expensive.
im going to bargain working that wednesday and thursday(which the thursday isnt necessary) but i still feel incredibly anxious. i know brendas response. bitching. i wish i had thought of this today when rebecca was working. shes very reasonable and i cut her kids hair so its easier to make a deal.. and i only work with her on sundays and next i'll be off. so im pretty much forced to talk to brenda.
its kinda ridiculous that heidi has taken two and a half weeks, and im stressing over taking an additional day to the one ive taken, that i havent "earned". i get my weeks paid, thats earned i got a raise when noone else did and was rising star. so i think asking off the 22nd and then working on my days off would be reasonable but damn im stressing.
and i will be damned if one of these apprentices that are going on the floor, or the new girls, get a station before i do. fuck that fuck them and their shit.
i get scarlets station, end of story.