It's been a while, update time.
About two weeks ago I broke up with William. But after he saw that I didn't want anything to do with him and was tired of all his bullshit he started to sing a different tune. At first it just pissed me off. It was the same old same old I love you I didn't mean what I said I don't want to loose you bullshit. Then he started to say that he was wrong in talking to her and focusing on her and listening to her problems and being worried about her and not me. Needless to say he told me he'd cut her out of his life(as much as he could because he still works with her...) and that he was wrong. That is what caught my attention, that he said he was wrong. Then I told him that I really didn't want to take that chance AGAIN. I told him that it didn't seem worth it to me to give my everything again for nothing. That he broke me to the point of no return. I told him that this is not the way that I want to live. I'm not going to settle. I know what I want and he is/was definitely not giving that to me. Then I told him that it just wasn't fair for him to keep cutting me open telling me to move on then when I started seeing the light at the end of the tunnel he'd come back and tell me that he wants me again. That it wasn't fair because I had started to move on and have feelings for someone else. I told him he needs to make his flipping mind up and to stop playing games. So then ofc he proceeded to beg and what not for me to take him back which kinda just annoyed me. Then we sat down and talked about it for about an hour and I decide in the end that I'll give him this last chance. But if he screwed me over one more damn time that I was done. For real this time.
I donno what to think anymore.... I don't freaking know! ehhhh.
You think you are okay with being with one guy but then you see the other guy and it's whoosh all those thoughts and feelings come right back and knocks you on your back. It's really quite confusing. But the thought of starting fresh and with someone that seems much more the type of person that I would be compatible with is very appealing. Even when I'm not sure he's even interested in me. I mean, I personally think he's too good for me... buuuut I donno. meh. My heart is annoying me... and so is my mind.
I'm going to go cook dinner now.
Peace I'm out.
-Keba
I donno what to think anymore.... I don't freaking know! ehhhh.
You think you are okay with being with one guy but then you see the other guy and it's whoosh all those thoughts and feelings come right back and knocks you on your back. It's really quite confusing. But the thought of starting fresh and with someone that seems much more the type of person that I would be compatible with is very appealing. Even when I'm not sure he's even interested in me. I mean, I personally think he's too good for me... buuuut I donno. meh. My heart is annoying me... and so is my mind.
I'm going to go cook dinner now.
Peace I'm out.
-Keba