What a year!!

[rebeccamae13]

OMG!! I can't believe that i am done with my first year of COLLEGE!! I didn't think i would make it but I DID!!! it has been one of my most trying and difficult years that i could ever imagine! I had to grow up a lot! I have experienced things that NO ONE should have to. It has definitely put my life into perspective. It's time for me to grow up and it scares me to DEATH! I never thought that this time would come so soon or that it would come about the way that it did...I have found that there are people that i can trust and people that i cant and it sux to know that there are people out there who you have done so much for and turn around and not even care for you or your feelings. I'm not going to miss OU but on the other hang I am.it feels good to be away from the people that all they do is upset me...I feel like I am getting a fresh start...but it sux, I miss the people who were there for me and wouldn't just step aside and watch..and would do something!! I'm going to MISS the people who knew how to make me laugh and the ones that I know I can always trust.......you know who you are and you know who you are NOT!!! I will NEVER forgive YOU!!! you know who you are, but you may be to blind to see it!! It hurts to find out who you really are...and yet it doesn't...you have ruined my life for the time being but soon I will never have to see, or hear your pitiful annoying wine that you call a voice again...I WILL be HAPPY...that will happen WITHOUT YOU!!! I FUCKING HATE YOU CARLY!!! i know one day you will see what you have done and i hope that you will never forget it..you ARE a HORRIBLE person!! One day you will realize that the world doesn't revolve around you and it never has and it never will!!

I will be able to move on but it will take time and patience!