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[rebeccalaneee]

I've realized, after completely over thinking the phrase "light hearted", that what makes you the person you are in a relationship is whats happened through your past ones. Whoever you dated before's mistakes and actions can make you scared to spend time around certain people. Or, under some circumstances, people spend more time around their friends just to make the person they're dating jealous so they'll get attention. Not because they aren't getting enough attention but because that's what they had to do in the past. The reason some people are afraid to be themselves around whoever their dating, the reason people get jealous really easily and the reason people get really upset when they're let down all happens because of how whatever happened in your last relationship. My last boyfriends have made me always worried, not jealous, that they'll cheat on me and I get very upset when they can't do something because I'm so used to being let down that I get sad easily when they can't make it. It probably makes me one of the most obnoxious girlfriends in the whole world how I'm always nervous and sometimes I wish that I wasn't like that. I just wish the past didn't do such a thorough job affecting the present.

Now, don't think because I've written this that I'm having boy troubles. Because in all honesty, I'm not. Okay.

I'll probably delete this entry tomorrowwwwwwww.