CAREEN INSTABILITY
I feel like I am having a midlife crisis (and it's not even MIDLIFE!). I had a horoscope the other day; normally these things don't stick with me, but this one for some reason stuck in my head. It was a story about a couple of friends that went joy riding. One had placed a coke can on the rear before they left. They went tumbling up and down hills, catching air at time, and screaming CAREEN at the top of their lungs after every jump. When they got out the coke can had stayed on the back somehow. They were baffled and from then on coined that, CAREEN STABILITY. So, when something stays constant/stable amidst chaos it was deemed Careen Stability. So for a week I thought and thought and thought about this careen stability and how it would affect me. Then BAM the careening comes, and I'm thinking well FUCK I can't believe this, and tried to reflect on having careen stability. For a few days it was cool, I was cool, but somehow things seemed to get lost from me. I am feeling like I'm in one of those Gravitron rides that comes to small town carnivals where it spins like crazy and your stuck!
They are totaling my scooter, so I am fucked!! I don't know what I am going to do, because the insurance company is probably only going to give me about $1500. I have to pay off the remaining loan (since they are taking the scooter away!) which is $1200, which leaves me with $300 and no scooter!!!!!!!!!! I don't know if I can get another loan for a scooter because of STUPID crediting agencies!
Work has seemed WAY less fulfilling lately and leaves me wondering why I do this to myself! How can I run a promo for Mcdonald's that says "come to Mcdonald's and see their "Healthy" options" when I KNOW they don't!!! How can I sit back and help everyone make their goals and put together their crap when I KNOW they would never do it for me. But then 10,000 questions follow. What would I do otherwise? Where would i get money? Do I stay in Austin? What do I need right now? What the fuck am i doing? You know those questions!
Relationships have felt way less fulfilling lately too, with boyfriend, friends, family, my cat! Maybe it is just me thinking of everything too much. Maybe it is just built up emotion that I never get to let out cause I am too worried about everyone else. Maybe its just time for a Rebecca makeover. New hair new girl!
I WISH I WAS A CAT THAT SLEPT ALL DAY, ATE AND LAYED ON A COOL PERSONS LAP ALL NIGHT!
They are totaling my scooter, so I am fucked!! I don't know what I am going to do, because the insurance company is probably only going to give me about $1500. I have to pay off the remaining loan (since they are taking the scooter away!) which is $1200, which leaves me with $300 and no scooter!!!!!!!!!! I don't know if I can get another loan for a scooter because of STUPID crediting agencies!
Work has seemed WAY less fulfilling lately and leaves me wondering why I do this to myself! How can I run a promo for Mcdonald's that says "come to Mcdonald's and see their "Healthy" options" when I KNOW they don't!!! How can I sit back and help everyone make their goals and put together their crap when I KNOW they would never do it for me. But then 10,000 questions follow. What would I do otherwise? Where would i get money? Do I stay in Austin? What do I need right now? What the fuck am i doing? You know those questions!
Relationships have felt way less fulfilling lately too, with boyfriend, friends, family, my cat! Maybe it is just me thinking of everything too much. Maybe it is just built up emotion that I never get to let out cause I am too worried about everyone else. Maybe its just time for a Rebecca makeover. New hair new girl!
I WISH I WAS A CAT THAT SLEPT ALL DAY, ATE AND LAYED ON A COOL PERSONS LAP ALL NIGHT!