My Firend Died.
So, I've been pretty quiet in here and online in general for a while I noticed today. So I went on here, then I realizd the last time I posted was the 11th..
And well, One of my very good friends, Nichole Sanders, Died Thursday the 12th of October. and it all made sense. I've kinda been stuck to Myspace since then, cause most of her friends, and my friends, from High School are there and we've all been comforting each tehr and talking about her and stuff.
Anyway, just thought I should explain my quietness.
Nichole really was one of my really good friends in High School. I met her the first day of high school in our first class. I was sitting alone at a table all by myself during lunch, and she offered to let me sit next to her, but I turned her down- not wanting to get stuck in a clique the first day of school.
Anyway, as it turned out we were in theatre and classes together for the next 4 years. and if any of you have ever done theatre, you know how close people in theatre can get-and how wacky the people in it can be.
So, anyway the last time I saw her was after our graduation party June 16th- she invited me and a couple other kinds back to her house to hang out-even though we already hadn't slept in about 30 hours. anyway it was fun and we went home. I was supposed to hang with Her October 13th and go to a haunted house- but I couldn't cause I ended up having a show.
So anyway. On October 12th I was doing my show blithe spirit. I've just gotten off stage and I notice I have a message on my voice mail. I go and listen to it. it goes something like this "Hey Rebecca, this is Mike Smith again. Um, we found Nichole. this was the report: Nichole M. Sanders was Killed in an automobile accident this evening driving home from Pendleton. Her car started to go off the side of the road, she tried to correct, but it flipped a few times and she was killed instantly -" he kept going but my mind kinda shut down with my thinking "is this some kind of horrible joke?" turns out it wasn't.
So, I didn't cry or anything, cause I was in my show, and I couldn't cry - it wouldn't be in character, and it would make my make-up run. I called Jesse and told what had happened and he said he'd come over and hang out with me. He brought Kristi with him - which made me happy. I still didn't cry that night when I got home
I went to her memorial service Wednesday, and I still didn't cry. Her family came in to choose her memorial and design it, and I still didn't cry.
I haven't cried. I feel like the biggest jerk in the world! she used to on occasion say "If I died, no one would even care, they'd throw a party" and I'd tell her "Nichole, if you died I would be very very sad" and she'd say "You wouldn't cry Rebecca no one would" and I would say "I would too cry! I would be so sad!"
And I haven' cried. I know LOTS of people she probably never realized liked her cried. There were so many people at her funeral it made me so happy - and her family was really touched too. it's amazing what one incredibly unique person can do to the people around them.
And well, One of my very good friends, Nichole Sanders, Died Thursday the 12th of October. and it all made sense. I've kinda been stuck to Myspace since then, cause most of her friends, and my friends, from High School are there and we've all been comforting each tehr and talking about her and stuff.
Anyway, just thought I should explain my quietness.
Nichole really was one of my really good friends in High School. I met her the first day of high school in our first class. I was sitting alone at a table all by myself during lunch, and she offered to let me sit next to her, but I turned her down- not wanting to get stuck in a clique the first day of school.
Anyway, as it turned out we were in theatre and classes together for the next 4 years. and if any of you have ever done theatre, you know how close people in theatre can get-and how wacky the people in it can be.
So, anyway the last time I saw her was after our graduation party June 16th- she invited me and a couple other kinds back to her house to hang out-even though we already hadn't slept in about 30 hours. anyway it was fun and we went home. I was supposed to hang with Her October 13th and go to a haunted house- but I couldn't cause I ended up having a show.
So anyway. On October 12th I was doing my show blithe spirit. I've just gotten off stage and I notice I have a message on my voice mail. I go and listen to it. it goes something like this "Hey Rebecca, this is Mike Smith again. Um, we found Nichole. this was the report: Nichole M. Sanders was Killed in an automobile accident this evening driving home from Pendleton. Her car started to go off the side of the road, she tried to correct, but it flipped a few times and she was killed instantly -" he kept going but my mind kinda shut down with my thinking "is this some kind of horrible joke?" turns out it wasn't.
So, I didn't cry or anything, cause I was in my show, and I couldn't cry - it wouldn't be in character, and it would make my make-up run. I called Jesse and told what had happened and he said he'd come over and hang out with me. He brought Kristi with him - which made me happy. I still didn't cry that night when I got home
I went to her memorial service Wednesday, and I still didn't cry. Her family came in to choose her memorial and design it, and I still didn't cry.
I haven't cried. I feel like the biggest jerk in the world! she used to on occasion say "If I died, no one would even care, they'd throw a party" and I'd tell her "Nichole, if you died I would be very very sad" and she'd say "You wouldn't cry Rebecca no one would" and I would say "I would too cry! I would be so sad!"
And I haven' cried. I know LOTS of people she probably never realized liked her cried. There were so many people at her funeral it made me so happy - and her family was really touched too. it's amazing what one incredibly unique person can do to the people around them.