i live @ the bookstore
I realized how much ADD I really have when I'm in my room. I'll say that I'll do some homework then like 2 hours later, I'll actually start it.
It's either, I'm on the computer, or cleaning my room, or shmokin...hahaha.
Thank god for working at the bookstore, so I have no other choice but to do homework. Or else, I'd be board outta my mind.
Winter break is coming up and I want to stay on campus. Problem is, they might want to move me into Winter Housing. EEEEEFFFFFF that. If I am unable to stay in my room then I don't want to stay. Besides, I just found out that I'd have to pay $35 a week. GAY.
I'ma take to my sister. Maybe I could stay with her in Worcester [30-40 minutes away], or I could stay @ her mother in-law's place which is only in Waltham [5 minutes away]. ::shrugs:: I'm not feelin the $35 a week, especially if I'ma be working so often ya know? It kinda sounds like a waste. Why must the school be so cheap?
I don't know if I'll be able to see Greg this weekend. His parents are going to be staying at the house across from the school, so that means Greg won't be there. I don't know if I want to drive up to Beverly either. ::shrugs::
Maybe some more time apart won't hurt...........
Time apart in the long run, I think will be good for us. I don't want to give the impression that I don't want to see him. I mean, I do want to see him. The thought of NOT seeing him this weekend makes me upset. But on the other hand, I think we need it after our fight, or whatever you want to call it.
I think I'm swinging both ways on the situation: I want him, but we need time apart.
weird how every time i mention time apart I get choked up.
i don't even know.....
I just keep replaying how shitty it felt when someone you love....treated you like shit....made you feel soooo small. Even though this was a one time thing....It just makes me wonder if it's gunna happen again........I wouldn't give a shit if someone else did it...who cares, but greg?
still hurts........ :o/
It's either, I'm on the computer, or cleaning my room, or shmokin...hahaha.
Thank god for working at the bookstore, so I have no other choice but to do homework. Or else, I'd be board outta my mind.
Winter break is coming up and I want to stay on campus. Problem is, they might want to move me into Winter Housing. EEEEEFFFFFF that. If I am unable to stay in my room then I don't want to stay. Besides, I just found out that I'd have to pay $35 a week. GAY.
I'ma take to my sister. Maybe I could stay with her in Worcester [30-40 minutes away], or I could stay @ her mother in-law's place which is only in Waltham [5 minutes away]. ::shrugs:: I'm not feelin the $35 a week, especially if I'ma be working so often ya know? It kinda sounds like a waste. Why must the school be so cheap?
I don't know if I'll be able to see Greg this weekend. His parents are going to be staying at the house across from the school, so that means Greg won't be there. I don't know if I want to drive up to Beverly either. ::shrugs::
Maybe some more time apart won't hurt...........
Time apart in the long run, I think will be good for us. I don't want to give the impression that I don't want to see him. I mean, I do want to see him. The thought of NOT seeing him this weekend makes me upset. But on the other hand, I think we need it after our fight, or whatever you want to call it.
I think I'm swinging both ways on the situation: I want him, but we need time apart.
weird how every time i mention time apart I get choked up.
i don't even know.....
I just keep replaying how shitty it felt when someone you love....treated you like shit....made you feel soooo small. Even though this was a one time thing....It just makes me wonder if it's gunna happen again........I wouldn't give a shit if someone else did it...who cares, but greg?
still hurts........ :o/