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I did it...what I have been trying so hard not to for the past few months. I was doing such a good job of it too. I hadn't been attracted to anybody. I hadn't gotten a stupid crush that I knew nothing was ever going to happen. But now I did. It really sucks. I can't blame the people around me. They did help push me to that stage...but I "crushed" all on my own. And just as every time before, nothing will happen. People don't think of me in that way, and I am going to have to deal with it. I didn't like tell the person or anything...I just know nothing will ever come of it, and it is worthless to even think anything of the sort. At this rate I will be destined to be alone for the rest of my life...how much does that suck?