Just another one of lifes ups and downs.
In life there are always bigger fish to fry. Things worth worrying about, and there are those things that just arent worth losing sleep over. Now we all just have to decide for ourselves whats worth doing more.
Today and yesterday have been some of the hardest days ive had in a long time. Honestly this year cant end any faster than it started. It was like since Janurary 1st, I stepped off the wrong side of the bed and its been a never ending bad day. and all the drugs in the world couldnt help mask that feeling. So I quit those things, and Im quitting worrying about shit that I cant control. I never really wanted the reigns. Im just glad and thankful for the things I still have and I need to face reality, and look at all the things that hurt me and cause me pain and turn my back to them. I need to stop being everything I despise, and all the things that make me not want to be me. Im finally facing that reailty and im on the path to doing whats right, cause I see that everything Ive done before has been scewed.
Sometimes you just need to hear these things. You need to have those talks. You need someone to shove the fact and whats real down your throat before you start noticing that they are there. We need to stop acting like children, like brats. Throwing fits for being ignored. Lashing out for attention.
im happy for the people who have stuck with me over the years, i never thought that they would be the ones helping me keep my composure. and I think they are the people I should worry more about than the ones who have left my side.