i said i love you and i swear i still do
1. Amnesia was one way for the mind to protect itself from reliving something that would otherwise break you apart.
2. Normal was a line that stretched on and on, teasing its way closer to an axis but never really reaching it.
3. Pure logic: Assuming reality was constant, expectation had to be greater than reality to create optimism. On the other hand, a pessimist was someone with expectations lower than reality, a fraction of diminishing returns. The human condition meant that this number approached zero without reaching it - you never really completely gave up hope; it might come flooding back at any provocation.
4. How could you be so alive one moment, and then have everything stop - not just your heart and your lungs, but the way you smiled slowly, the left side of your mouth curling before the right; and the pitch of your voice; and the habit you had of tugging at your hair when you were doing your math homework?
5. There was a point where the events of your life became a tsunami. When that happened, you would find yourself days later on unfamiliar ground, rootless. The only other choice you had was to move to higher ground while you still could.
6. So much of the language of love was like that: you devoured someone with your eyes, you drank in the sight of him, you swallowed him whole. Love was sustenance, broken down and beating through your bloodstream.
7. You could patch up whatever was broken, but if you were the one who had fixed it, you'd always know in your heart where the fault lines lay.
8. What she hadn't realized was that sometimes when your vision was that sharp and true, it could cut you. That only if you'd felt such fullness could you really understand the ache of being empty.
9. But this was exactly what happened, wasn't it, when you start to sift through the shifting sands of feelings, instead of just feeding facts hand over fist? The hell with putting your heart on your sleeve; it was likely to get ripped off.
10. Imagine how much less it took to destroy something than it did to build it in the first place.
11. Love was supposed to move mountains, to make the world go round, to be all you need, but it fell apart at the details.
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Today was rather fun.
Training was alright.
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Some surprising things happened today.
____, I'm really happy for you.
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Thanks Nurul for going home with me.
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Piano theory for two hours straight is very tiring.
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Someone, go out with me tomorrow!
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(I said I love you and I swear I still do.)