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[reason_to_stay]

i am so unbelievably tired right now
physically and emotionally
it's not that i don't wan't to worry about you
i just don't want that kind of worry
thoughts of you being dead or in the hospital or in jail or something
if i have to worry about things like that all the time i will go crazy
for real crazy, mental hospital crazy
i want to be the thing that makes you happy
please let me be that again
i won't let you down this time

i want to be the surgeon who cuts you open
fixes all of lifes mistakes
i want to be the house that you were raised in
the only place where you feel safe
i want to be your shower in the morning
that wakes you up and makes you clean
i want to be everything that makes you happy