holy hell
okay forget the fact that its been months since ive updated. my life has gone nuts thats all that can be said about it. i dont know what the hell is going on with me. i went from being some girl who likes to fling around to attempting to hand my heart to every boy who says he likes and i find attractive, ive gone crazy.
lets be honest, i still like cameron...why? hell if i know, we were so alike and had such different backgrounds that he kept my attention like no one else.
yeah so then there is guy
tony,
(yes i made it stand out so badly, cause im too lazy to bold it, okay!?)god i hope you are reading this boy cause its probably the only way ill ever get a hold of your ass.
anyway so yeah i guess i like him but as does chellie he says he "likes" me (not that i can tell seeing how i cant have a decent conversation with him because hes always needed elsewhere)and since chellie likes him and is the girl that introduced me to him just because we were at the same place at the same time likes him, i cannot act on my feelings, no compromise to that at all. yeah i still like him i cant stop my feelings, but at the same time to an extent i cant stand the fact that in order to see him i basically rearrange my life, okay not really rearrange seeing how my life is pretty much where the current takes me. and most the time it ends up being with him cause hes the only person that ever says "yeah lets meet up..." hint hint to other friends. BUT ANYWAY, you know maybe i just got my heart a little to into this and for some reason i felt that a confess of feelings was going to get me more of his time, guess i was wrong i just am more frustrated now trying to get the time. wow that might have been the best thing i have thought of on this topic.
god that paragraph has no substance at all yet felt SO good to get out, dont you love those?
this was just one of those entries, where i needed to say it and i had no one to tell it to, you know?
lets be honest, i still like cameron...why? hell if i know, we were so alike and had such different backgrounds that he kept my attention like no one else.
yeah so then there is guy
tony,
(yes i made it stand out so badly, cause im too lazy to bold it, okay!?)god i hope you are reading this boy cause its probably the only way ill ever get a hold of your ass.
anyway so yeah i guess i like him but as does chellie he says he "likes" me (not that i can tell seeing how i cant have a decent conversation with him because hes always needed elsewhere)and since chellie likes him and is the girl that introduced me to him just because we were at the same place at the same time likes him, i cannot act on my feelings, no compromise to that at all. yeah i still like him i cant stop my feelings, but at the same time to an extent i cant stand the fact that in order to see him i basically rearrange my life, okay not really rearrange seeing how my life is pretty much where the current takes me. and most the time it ends up being with him cause hes the only person that ever says "yeah lets meet up..." hint hint to other friends. BUT ANYWAY, you know maybe i just got my heart a little to into this and for some reason i felt that a confess of feelings was going to get me more of his time, guess i was wrong i just am more frustrated now trying to get the time. wow that might have been the best thing i have thought of on this topic.
god that paragraph has no substance at all yet felt SO good to get out, dont you love those?
this was just one of those entries, where i needed to say it and i had no one to tell it to, you know?