updated, its well overdue
so, i havent updated in a while and if i have updated it hasnt been in english so yeah i figured it is about time to put everything out there. Well mardi gras is over and i had some fun got to spend time with a bunch of people who i sually dont spend time with so it was cool. valentines day was on monday and although i didnt have anyone to spend it with.. i realized i could still survive beause i still have people who care for me so why sweat it?
On another note, i learned that my best friend's dad in greece died... UNfortunately he was 37 and died of a heart attack because doctors in greece are stupid and they dont really know what they are talking about... poor marika, she's my best friend and the only thing i can imagine is how hard it must be for her and she really doesnt have any other friends over there who are girls and it just upsets me to know that i cant be there to help her... however she knows and i know that if i lived in greece i would be there for her every day.... it scary how things happen and you take things like your parents for granted, gosh i feel so horrible and the sad thing is that my initial reaction was not that of i wonder how my best friend is taking this but it was more of a what am i gonna do and how am i gonna react when i go back to greece... yeah i know
also, i hvae been thinking about it.. is it posisble to dwell in the past for too long? people always tell you to listen to your heart, but is it possible that your heart is just hoping for something that is non-existent or something that was good at one point but no longer have the same feeling? do you continue to thrive for what you once have in hopes that it will go back to the GOOD OLE WAYS or do you accept that things arent the way they used to be and just let go? i dont know, i find myself holding onto things that are no longer mine but i just cant seem to let go... what the hell is wrong with me... i just dont understand... whatever just a bunch of mumble jumble, leave a comment id love to know whats on your mind and if you can help please do..
On another note, i learned that my best friend's dad in greece died... UNfortunately he was 37 and died of a heart attack because doctors in greece are stupid and they dont really know what they are talking about... poor marika, she's my best friend and the only thing i can imagine is how hard it must be for her and she really doesnt have any other friends over there who are girls and it just upsets me to know that i cant be there to help her... however she knows and i know that if i lived in greece i would be there for her every day.... it scary how things happen and you take things like your parents for granted, gosh i feel so horrible and the sad thing is that my initial reaction was not that of i wonder how my best friend is taking this but it was more of a what am i gonna do and how am i gonna react when i go back to greece... yeah i know
also, i hvae been thinking about it.. is it posisble to dwell in the past for too long? people always tell you to listen to your heart, but is it possible that your heart is just hoping for something that is non-existent or something that was good at one point but no longer have the same feeling? do you continue to thrive for what you once have in hopes that it will go back to the GOOD OLE WAYS or do you accept that things arent the way they used to be and just let go? i dont know, i find myself holding onto things that are no longer mine but i just cant seem to let go... what the hell is wrong with me... i just dont understand... whatever just a bunch of mumble jumble, leave a comment id love to know whats on your mind and if you can help please do..