Life continued
Life is confusing, though I think I remember ranting about that before. What you have one minute may be gone, What you thought one second can change the next. To quote Gothe... "Choose well, your choice is breif, and yet endless."
I gave blood again today. Without eating or drinking anything beforehand. It was the closest I felt to fainting ever giving blood. Now my arms are tired, and it's hard to hold them up add type at the same time. Hopefully my blood can actually be used this time... as if I get that false positive thing again, I can never give blood for the rest of my life.
Sometimes I don't know what to think anymore. A lot of the time really. Even things I thought were concrete bend and break.
May will suck.
I don't know where I want to be anymore, or what I want to do... I've slipped ever more so into apathy.
On a good note, I didn't get sick drinking the spoiled milk or weird apple juice. Though I tried to get myself sick doing that again as I drank a different carton of spoiled milk, though the second I only drank one sip of. I feel smart.
I bled more than usual on the bandage after giving blood too. I don't know if it was the nurse or just me, as she seemed somewhat inexperienced. But my iron was higher than I've ever had it giving blood- 40. Usually I hover around 36-38, 37 being the lower limit of where you can give blood. Then again, a lot of the blood drives have been on or near my period, and apparently that has something to do with it. Hopefully that's a good sign of some sort.
I got to play around on an I-book at the drive as well, some rep had a couple of them out. I decided what I liked best about them in my 10-minute-or-so test period is the keyboard. For some reason, I could type really well on that keyboard. They're pretty neat... don't really know if I want one though. I'm actually pretty happy with PCs in general.
But enough about me. To all my friends... I'm sorry I haven't been very upfront about talking to any of you really. This apathy has really grabbed me, though that's not really an excuse. I still care about you all, though, so don't think otherwise.
I gave blood again today. Without eating or drinking anything beforehand. It was the closest I felt to fainting ever giving blood. Now my arms are tired, and it's hard to hold them up add type at the same time. Hopefully my blood can actually be used this time... as if I get that false positive thing again, I can never give blood for the rest of my life.
Sometimes I don't know what to think anymore. A lot of the time really. Even things I thought were concrete bend and break.
May will suck.
I don't know where I want to be anymore, or what I want to do... I've slipped ever more so into apathy.
On a good note, I didn't get sick drinking the spoiled milk or weird apple juice. Though I tried to get myself sick doing that again as I drank a different carton of spoiled milk, though the second I only drank one sip of. I feel smart.
I bled more than usual on the bandage after giving blood too. I don't know if it was the nurse or just me, as she seemed somewhat inexperienced. But my iron was higher than I've ever had it giving blood- 40. Usually I hover around 36-38, 37 being the lower limit of where you can give blood. Then again, a lot of the blood drives have been on or near my period, and apparently that has something to do with it. Hopefully that's a good sign of some sort.
I got to play around on an I-book at the drive as well, some rep had a couple of them out. I decided what I liked best about them in my 10-minute-or-so test period is the keyboard. For some reason, I could type really well on that keyboard. They're pretty neat... don't really know if I want one though. I'm actually pretty happy with PCs in general.
But enough about me. To all my friends... I'm sorry I haven't been very upfront about talking to any of you really. This apathy has really grabbed me, though that's not really an excuse. I still care about you all, though, so don't think otherwise.