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I dont know what to do anymore.
I have given up on him, and I have given up on you. Actually, no. I didnt "give up", I let you go. I have successfully done it. I tried everything I could to make you see me again. But all my calls went unanswered. None of my wishes came true. I gave him up because I realized that you were better. and you know what? The thought actually truthfully crossed my mind that you were someone I could love, because I had let "him" go. The one that stopped everything before. But now, ... I can never see myself thinking that again. You can only push a person so far you know.. maybe this was your intent. To just push me and push me until I walked away on my own. Well, it worked. and you werent even him. You were still so caught up in her to see. And that is just fine.. that is just fine. I understand. I did the same for a while. But I get it now. I just wish that I wouldnt have wasted so much time. But I did, and theres nothing I can do about it anymore, except for stop. So that's what I am doing. I am moving on. You had me. Past tense, had.
I have given up on him, and I have given up on you. Actually, no. I didnt "give up", I let you go. I have successfully done it. I tried everything I could to make you see me again. But all my calls went unanswered. None of my wishes came true. I gave him up because I realized that you were better. and you know what? The thought actually truthfully crossed my mind that you were someone I could love, because I had let "him" go. The one that stopped everything before. But now, ... I can never see myself thinking that again. You can only push a person so far you know.. maybe this was your intent. To just push me and push me until I walked away on my own. Well, it worked. and you werent even him. You were still so caught up in her to see. And that is just fine.. that is just fine. I understand. I did the same for a while. But I get it now. I just wish that I wouldnt have wasted so much time. But I did, and theres nothing I can do about it anymore, except for stop. So that's what I am doing. I am moving on. You had me. Past tense, had.