I'm such a douche.

[reanimati0n]

Such an anti-social bastard of a son of a bitching arsehooooole.
I'm getting myself all wound up over nothing, really D:
ALcon, god sake.

I want to go.
...but I don't.

Why I want to go:
Last year was so so so cool, I had so much fun and I love dressing in cosplay, it's fun times.
The people were really nice, and friendly, and really easy to get on with, and we all had so much fun.

BUT...
All the people I went with last year have realllllly gotten into it, and it's slightly weird, cos'... forums are fun and all, but I can't get into it like they have, so I rarely talk to them anymore.
I mean... I text some of them, but I never have a reply, so... I feel... forgotten, maybe?
Idk.
People move on, yes?
Or maybe I'm being paranoooooid?
I don't think I am, haha.
Most people I made friends with have become loads closer, and I don't feel I'd fit in.
I don't get chance to watch anime anymore, with a busted laptop, I don't read much manga anymore, my money I earn goes towards college shit.
I don't think I'd be able to AFFORD the costs for alcon, train tickets and accom is expensiiive.
Sammy is being stupid, and angsty and shit.
Apologiesssssssssss for being a shit person.