invisible
have you ever felt invisible? it is definitely a feeling that i comfortable with. im comfortable being invisible because no one ever looks my way long enough to make me think of something witty to say to them if they asked for my opinion. im comfortable being invisible cause that means that i can go to target looking a hot ass mess and not care, cause no one will look at me long enough to think im pretty under all that mess.
im feeling especially invisible this january. im not dating anybody. the guy i was quasi-dating went to the place where all guys go after you have a couple of dates and you see that theres nothing there. my guy that i like to just look at isnt calling me so much anymore after i wanted him to be my friend. no one really calls anymore.
the funny thing is that... im relieved.
in college, i was always constantly called and i felt like if i had to be that person. you know, the one that cheers every body up, the one that makes people laugh, the token girl from the hood if you will and now i just don't want to be anybodys anything.
its friday night, i teach saturday school tomorrow and im relieved that im so invisible that i have no plans. i can enjoy a nice chapter from my book that i have waiting for me on my night stand and a good nights sleep.
for now, i like being invisible. that'll change in february though.
im feeling especially invisible this january. im not dating anybody. the guy i was quasi-dating went to the place where all guys go after you have a couple of dates and you see that theres nothing there. my guy that i like to just look at isnt calling me so much anymore after i wanted him to be my friend. no one really calls anymore.
the funny thing is that... im relieved.
in college, i was always constantly called and i felt like if i had to be that person. you know, the one that cheers every body up, the one that makes people laugh, the token girl from the hood if you will and now i just don't want to be anybodys anything.
its friday night, i teach saturday school tomorrow and im relieved that im so invisible that i have no plans. i can enjoy a nice chapter from my book that i have waiting for me on my night stand and a good nights sleep.
for now, i like being invisible. that'll change in february though.