dreams and nightmares
recently i havent been sleeping well. but when i do get a chance at a good nights rest i have these crazy nightmares. now you would think that i would dream about vampires and stuff since i've been obsessed with them lately. but ive been dreaming of something much scarier.... my ex boyfriend.
so far, ive had 2 very vivid dreams about his dumbass. the first one was me meeting him randomly and asking him all sorts of questions. it was soooo weird and it felt soooooo real. so real that when i woke up, i totally woke up in a cold sweat and gasping and shit. it freaked me the fuck out.
the second one was last night. last night's nightmare was much worse. first off im in my underwear and im in some like cold ass city. for some reason im in this park and i run into him and his new wife, who is hella cool. we all start talking and its weird! but for some reason i want to know more about her, so she randomly tells me where she works and i show up there! it was like if i was obsessed with someone that he picked and i wanted to know what she had that kept him from cheating on her and being mean to her. it was crazy! i woke up the same way, in a cold sweat and gasping and in a bad mood.
dont get me wrong. i never want to see him again! however whats up with this closure bullshit? i dont get why im dreaming about him! its freaking me out!
the one thing that i love more than anything....sleeping....has now become tainted.
so far, ive had 2 very vivid dreams about his dumbass. the first one was me meeting him randomly and asking him all sorts of questions. it was soooo weird and it felt soooooo real. so real that when i woke up, i totally woke up in a cold sweat and gasping and shit. it freaked me the fuck out.
the second one was last night. last night's nightmare was much worse. first off im in my underwear and im in some like cold ass city. for some reason im in this park and i run into him and his new wife, who is hella cool. we all start talking and its weird! but for some reason i want to know more about her, so she randomly tells me where she works and i show up there! it was like if i was obsessed with someone that he picked and i wanted to know what she had that kept him from cheating on her and being mean to her. it was crazy! i woke up the same way, in a cold sweat and gasping and in a bad mood.
dont get me wrong. i never want to see him again! however whats up with this closure bullshit? i dont get why im dreaming about him! its freaking me out!
the one thing that i love more than anything....sleeping....has now become tainted.