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Why is it such a short distance between being alright, and not? Just days ago, I thought I had reached a safe space. Content, for the first time in a long time, that things were working out. That I had gotten across some hurdles, hit some milestones.. And now it's gone again.
I have questionable judgement. I don't know enough. I'm less than ready, unprepared, mediocre, if that.. I am struggling with all this, while it seems effortless to the rest of the world. Not good enough is not a good place to be.
And why can't I escape the clutches of the past? Why can't I just leave it all behind and have it stay there? I don't need those certain reminders..
I am tired. Not just from a run of nights, but..tired of always finding myself behind the eight-ball.
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"In my opinion, if something looks too good to be true, it's best to shoot it just in case."
-Fiona, Burn Notice