Sad Times
So basically what it boils down to is I am stressed out. Not with school. Not with work. Not with my friends. I am frustrated with myself. The last month has been hell. I have fallen for a friend of mine, a female, and the whole situation is touchy and I cant get help/answers. The problem is that I know I like her as more than a friend, and she knows that too. I believe she likes me too, however, she thinks that I am indeed gay and that I am maybe trying to be someone else? But, as much as I value her analyization...I really do like her. It is true feelings. When you cant stop thinking about someone thats something. This isnt me "searching" for my soul. I know what I want. The biggest problem is everyone seems to think I am gay. I AM NOT GAY. I AM BISEXUAL. I have always been. Yeah, so of late I had been dating guys and not girls...but that doesnt mean I am all penis. I cant talk to anybody else about it because they all think its funny I am trying to date a girl, and they dont know how much that hurts me. It really does. I dont know what to do. I am lost. So very lost. Why does this have to happen to me? Why couldnt I know If I was just gay or straight? SOB.
Tonight, I drove to Georgia. I stopped in this prairie that overlooks this lake and looked at the stars. I did something I havent done in 6 months. I cried. Hard.
Tonight, I drove to Georgia. I stopped in this prairie that overlooks this lake and looked at the stars. I did something I havent done in 6 months. I cried. Hard.