18 писем Муну, часть 1
Здесь я уже выкладывал перевод 4 писем Тима, а теперь выкладываю все, но на английском.
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Выкладываю частями, слишком большой текст.
TIM's 18 LETTERS TO REV. SUN MYUNG MOON
If you read Tim's spiritual testimony you may have been inspired by
his experience with the Divine Principle. I know that I was inspired.
However through reading the following letters you will discover that there is
something wrong in the Unification Church. Someone is telling lies and
trying to cover up scandal and abuse. Read these letters and find out what
has been going on behind the scenes of HSA.
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one
September 4, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
This will be the first of a series of letters I will be writing to you. For
the most part, the purpose of the letters is to seek answers to questions
which I think need to be asked if we are to succeed in accomplishing all of
the things that you proclaim to be our purpose.
In the way of introduction, let me say that I am an American, a college
graduate, who joined the movement in 1975 and spent 8 years fundraising.
Other highlights of my "church life" would be that I am the guy who Hyun
Jin smacked around a couple of times, and who Hyo Jin use to regularly say
he would like to kill at Belvedere Sunday Service. Both of those situations
were the result of my publicly asking the kind of questions which I would
now like to ask you.
I am also an artist of considerable merit. I am presently represented by the
best gallery in New York City (resume enclosed).
My first question would be: Why is it (seeing as how the major point which
makes our movement an advancement over all religious movements which
came before it) why is it that in our movement NO ONE ever becomes
"officially true"?
We often speak of the failure of Christianity as being that
Christians make Jesus out to be God, thus cutting off their own path to
divinity. But isn't it true that we in the Unification Church do the exact
same thing to you? Isn't it also true that you encourage, if not enforce,
this false mindset?
Though you give a lot of lip-service to the opposite concept ("You must
become sunnies who are a source of the light; rather than moonies who only
reflect.") isn't it true that, in reality, the way the movement is
structured, that it is blasphemy to think of oneself as being even your
potential equal?
Indeed, for a member to so much as question you or your
decisions seemingly becomes just cause for that member to be accused of
being Satan (in my case, be physically abused and then have my business
destroyed) while the entire leadership mutely stands by without so much as
having a conversation with the member. When that happens (as it often has)
doesn't that undermine the confidence of all potential Tribal Messiahs to
believe in their own thought processes?
Isn't it a fact that in the movement you created, you are placed on a
pedestal so far beyond the reach of members and that we are made to believe
that we are unworthy to so much as tie your shoe?
Doesn't that reality make a mockery of all that you teach?
Doesn't that reality doom to failure all that you and so many of us have
invested our lives in trying to accomplish?
Isn't the Unification Church merely Christianity II?
Sincerely,
Tim
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two
September 5, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
I believe that you have a very special spiritual foundation and that you are
indeed the chosen one, The Messiah, whose mission it is to usher in the
Completed Testament Age. I have no problem with that.
But isn't that title, more or less, just a position? Please don't
misunderstand me. I don't mean to belittle your accomplishments. Not at all.
I am probably your biggest fan.
What I mean to say is, in light of everything (past, present and on and on
for all eternity)......it's not really about Sun Myung Moon. Is it? I mean,
in light of everything, looking at it from the perspective of the biggest
possible picture, ultimately, even you will be just another guy in The
Kingdom. Isn't that true? As things progress, as more and more spiritual
doors begin to open, won't each succeeding generation become more wise? I
would certainly hope that, 10,000 years from now, the most stupid person
on earth will be infinitely more wise than you and I are today. Isn't that your
hope (as it is my own)?
So in one respect, your position is simply that you are the first of what
will ultimately be billions and billions of others (the vast majority of whom
will have spiritual foundations which are even better than your own).
I see you as being like a mile marker along the providential road. Your
appearance is a sign which proclaims to the world "This kind of a
relationship with God is now possible."
But if it was just you and no one else, your appearance wouldn't be an event
having great providential significance. You'd just become yet another
religious icon, and the world has seen many of those.
The verifying truth behind the sign, actually, is not you. It's us. The
thousands and thousands who were born with foundations which are actually very similar to your own. The sign isn't about Sun Myung Moon. It's
about a special time in God's Providence in which many, many, many people
will begin to experience and respond to God directly.
Isn't that why we all joined so easily? Nobody had to do heavy indemnity
conditions to clear the way for most of us. We jumped into the church. We
were already searching. We didn't respond to our "spiritual parents" or even
to you. Not really. We were responding to THE GOD IN US just like you
were when you began your own providential mission.
So the truth is, the biggest difference between you and a lot of us is only a
step or two. I happen to think that I am personally as close to being your
twin as any identical twins you will ever find. I understand your experience
with God. I have the same experience.
So here is my problem. My question for the day.
How come YOU got all the credit?
You know what I mean? I mean, without us, you couldn't have
accomplished anything. You'd still just be some guy in Korea who no one
knows or cares about.
Every member in this church played a HUGE role in every single positive
event that happened in the history of The Unification Church. Yet members
never get any credit. You do.
But okay. That's fair. Most of the ideas (authoritarian institution that The
Unification Church is) were indeed your own. If you want to take all the
credit, I think that is fair.
However, in such case, I think what would be equally fair is that you also
take responsibility for all the failures. I think that, if we drew up an
accurate balance sheet, the truth is that most of your initiatives have been
total failures. Many embarrassingly so.
But you never get blamed for the failures (if indeed the failures are even
mentioned again). We do. "We didn't unite (or pray hard enough, or work
hard enough, whatever)."
Isn't that true? When the history of our movement is finally recorded by
objective historians, won't they write that all of "your victories" were
blown all out of proportion in terms of their actual result; and all of your
failures were blamed on others or were buried?
So okay. This could merely be the story of an egotistical man. So what?
I'll tell you so what.
The success of God's Providence hinges on members (and others) ability to
believe in themselves as truly being God's Sons and Daughters. It's a
confidence game. If they believe, they will act. If they act, God will work.
While growing up in the kindergarten that The Unification Church usually
is, YOU were the example of what a True Man looked like. For members to
have confidence in themselves, they had to be able to see themselves in
YOU. If they don't (or can't) all that schooling was for nothing.
How can members see themselves in this totally unrealistic guy that your
hype has made you out to be? You have them all believing (or at least HAD
them all believing) that you could do no wrong. Everything you initiated was
GREAT (in letters ten feet tall) and all the failures were because other people
didn't unite with your perfect ideas.
Your hype does not increase a member's confidence in their own abilities.
Your hype destroys member's confidence. It makes them feel totally
insecure. How can they see themselves in this man who can seemingly do no
wrong? They become totally paralyzed with hesitation, waiting to hear that
absolute voice from God which will tell them nothing but perfect moves to
make (when you and I know that no such voice exists).
So my question for today is: Why do you take all the credit? Why don't you
ever publicly admit to your failures?
Is your personal pride so great that you are willing to screw up God's
Providence rather than publicly admit to personal flaws?
I really don't understand.
Sincerely,
Tim
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September 6, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
What was it that made Abraham's sacrifice of Isaac so meaningful?
Wasn't it Abraham's immense love for his son, as well as Isaac's
unconditional love and trust in his father? If Abraham was just some
cold-hearted Khomeini-type guy who was only interested in his own concept
of God's will; if Isaac had to be dragged to the altar while kicking and
screaming: would the offering have then had any significance at all?
According to your own words, restoration begins with the individual, then
family, clan, etc.
Is it okay to skip a level? (This will be my question for the day.)
Didn't you skip family level?
Did you win their unconditional love and support? Or did you just drag
them to the altar?
When you skip a level and move on, what happens?
Don't you then create deformity reflecting that which was left unfulfilled?
Look at the failure of the American movement. Why did so many come, and
then go?
Wasn't it because leadership never followed through on the initial promise of
True Love? Wasn't it because leadership never bothered to win member's
unconditional love and support before dragging them to the altar of
sacrifice?
Most of the leaders of your movement, including your own children, have a
history of ruthlessly judging members without benefit of any kind of a
relationship. Indeed, in many cases, those leaders have never even met or
had a single conversation with the member. Zin Moon Kim, who was in
charge of America at the time, the man you appointed, told me to give up art,
stop writing (thinking), and move to my hometown for one year before he
would agree to meet with me FOR THE FIRST TIME. Hyun Jin destroyed
my business without ever having had a two-way conversation. Hyo Jin made
me infamous by speaking of how much he hated me at Belvedere without
ever having looked into my eyes.
The Bible says that you will know him by his fruit.
Where did this strange pattern of sacrificing members before creating a bond
of love and trust begin?
(Actually I have two theories, but the other will be the topic for another
letter.)
Sincerely,
Tim
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four
September 7, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
"Ladies and Gentlemen, it is my great privilege to announce to you the
establishment of the first true family. My wife and I, together with our 13
children and 24 grandchildren are absolutely dedicated to serving God and
humanity. With three generations in one family, we have achieved, on the
family level, the central root, the central trunk and the central bud of the
"Tree of Life" mentioned in the Bible."
from "True Parents and the Completed Testament Age"
I was recently informed that you requested that members not gossip about
problems within your family and that you would take care of those
problems.
As happy as I am to hear that you are finally going to take care of your own
family, in light of the above quoted speech I hardly see where you have the
grounds to make such a request.
How can you and your family go all over the world, speaking at events
organized by members, spending (I imagine) millions of dollars which was
raised by members, all to proclaim the arrival of "The True Family" and then
expect everyone to not take an interest in that family? Isn't that rather
unrealistic?
The way I see it, you only have two ways to go with this thing and come out
of it with your integrity intact: 1) You can publicly (at very least within
the movement) withdraw the proclamation and declare your family to now
be a private one upon which no church funds will be spent. 2) You can come
forward (at very least within the movement) with a full account of the truth
behind "the gossip", clear the air and let members decide for themselves
whether or not your family is true, and whether or not they want to go on
supporting both you and your family (or the movement of which your family
is the supposed "central bud") with their money and effort.
In no way do I see unquestioning silence as a viable option among human
beings.
The way I and most people define "true" is truthful.
Within the movement, it is generally understood that true people are also
public people.
It was you who declared your family to be the most public of all on earth,
and I think it contradicts nearly everything you stand for to now say that no
one should question (think about) the validity of your own proclamation.
So today's question is: Which way do you want to go with this thing?
Sincerely,
Tim
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five
September 8, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
I am an active member on an internet forum (one-world-com) which is
loosely comprised of Unification Church members. I am also posting these
letters on that forum.
In response to my last letter ("four") someone wrote that my self-righteous
tone would be counter-productive in regards to having you receive what was
actually a valid point.
In response to that post, I related a couple of experiences which I have had
at East Garden. (They were my only two experiences at East Garden.) On
both of those occasions you said the same thing, I felt, directly to me. What
you said was that, when you began your mission, everyone around you was
always urging you to be more diplomatic. They told you that you were
making everyone angry and afraid. But you said that you never listened to
any of them. You concluded by saying that we would be surprised by how,
after ten years, all of that anger and fear turns into respect.
On the one occasion, I was standing directly behind your chair when you
said this. After saying it, you turned and looked me right in the eye.
I doubt that you remember that, but I want you to know that those two
occasions have always served as a great inspiration to me. Indeed, it is
those words (along with your advice that we follow our conscience, even if it
contradicts your own direction) which serve as the inspiration behind this
series.
I also would like you to know that I have had a couple hundred dreams in
which you played a role. Those dreams never leave me feeling that I have
chosen the wrong course.
.......
As a member of the Unification Church in these modern times, I hear a lot of
strange things about what went on, what goes on; and I'm sure I speak for
many when I say that we just don't know what to think about it all.
On the one hand, it would be so convenient to believe that we are the good
guys and that all of the strange stories are nothing more than "satanic
accusation" (which is pretty much the official church line concerning
anything said by anyone that isn't 100% positive).
On the other hand, in this age of Tribal Messiahship, it is up to each one of
us to take individual responsibility. Some people, due to their easy-going
nature, have no problem glossing over messy details and sticking to the
positive. I'm not one of those people. I have to know the truth behind the
accusations before I go testifying about anyone, you included.
My questioning probably began when I attended your trial here in New York
City. I don't know if you will recall, but I was the church artist assigned
to draw pictures of the proceedings for the historical record. I attended
every day, sitting directly in front of your wife. (I was told that you liked
my drawings.)
During that trial, all kinds of unusual things came to light.
You declared that this was the first time that you had heard about most of
it, and I believed you.
I believed you because I had no way of knowing otherwise. That's the way it
always is concerning "accusations". It's always "he said - she said" and how
am I suppose to know who is lying? My experiences with you up to that
point always led me to believe that you were 100% truthful in every way.
We all want to believe that you are 100% truthful in every way. We would
still love you even if you were not, but it sure would be nice to have this
one person who we could trust completely; unrealistic as that might be.
Everyone likes fairy tales.
Someone once told me that, according to scientific method, the exception
disproves the rule. This will be my question for the day. Do you believe
that? Do you believe that if I can find a single instance in which I can
prove that you were less than truthful, do you believe that I then have the
right, indeed, as a Son of God who is every bit as committed to restoring
mankind as you are, the responsibility to question everything that you say
until you can prove to me the truth behind your statements?
The photo of (allegedly) you carrying Mr. Pak.
I have been told by a number of people that you have said that the photo is
not of you.
And yet that photo has been used repeated, as recently as the video made by
Hyo Jin, as being a photo of you. Surely you are aware of this and did not
put a stop to it.
Isn't that an example of you being less than truthful? Isn't that an example
of you manipulating the minds of people by fabricating a lie?
Am I wrong to conclude that you are not above lying if you think it will
serve your best interests?
Wouldn't you agree that this legitimately opens the door for me to ask all
kinds of questions?
Sincerely,
Tim
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September 9, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
I have a very good friend. Just recently she told me that she had a secret
that she has been keeping from me. She told me that, as a child, she was
sexually molested.
After all the tears, the first thing she said was "I'm sorry to have told you
this. Does it effect your feelings for me?"
Now I'm sure that you and anyone with a heart can realize how silly her
question was. Anything that happened a long time ago has got nothing to do
with my feelings for this person (beyond sympathy). I love who I know her
to be now. If anything, I can love her even more now because she has
demonstrated a greater level of love and trust in me in that she shared her
long kept secret.
Yet I think there is something to be learned about the nature of secrets from
her very sincere question.
Mistakes and problems are no big deal once dealt with. Once understood,
they get filed away. Everyone has made mistakes and so no one has much in
the way of grounds to accuse another for having done the same.
However, what makes mistakes and problems HUGE is when they are kept
secret. They fester and become seemingly thousands of times bigger than
they actually are. "If you reveal your secret everyone will hate you" satan
whispers. We then find ourselves doing and saying things we would never
do and say if it were not for the "cover-up". The secret begins to taint
everything.
I'm sure that, by now, everyone in the movement has heard the rumors
concerning alleged illegitimate children belonging to you. That's a fact.
Even if it is just a rumor, it is a fact that such a rumor exists. It needs
to be publicly (at least within the movement) confronted. Otherwise, it will
NEVER go away.
I have heard about two sons (and more vague rumors of others). One grew
up in DC; another is in Korea today. The one in Korea is very public about
it. He even has teachings on the subject. I'm told that, in his own way, he
supports your teaching.
Of course, Unification Church officialdom says that all of this is wild
unsubstantiated rumor by people who are satanic and trying to destroy the
heavenly movement. I would probably be more inclined to believe them had
it not been for the many instances in which they have said the same thing
about me, and many others, whose only "offense" was to seek answers to
obvious questions. Unification Church officialdom has become pretty much
of a joke in the eyes of most members who think.
Personally speaking, what makes me believe that there is truth behind the
rumors is the simple fact that I can't imagine why, in this age of DNA
testing, anyone would personally make such a claim were it not true.
I only see three ways that you can deal with this, and you absolutely MUST
deal with it or the movement centering on you will disintegrate.
1. If it is totally false, say so and publicly challenge the people involved
to DNA testing.
2. If it was simply a mistake of yours, way back when you were a less
mature person than the person we all know you to be today, or if it was a
mistake rooted in a different understanding of restoration than that which
you understand today, then please: simply admit the mistake. We will
understand. We will love you even more for having trusted us. It will help
us to mature also. I doubt that there is a single person in the Unification
Church who does not still deeply care about Hyo Jin Nim in spite of
everything.
3. If it is true that you had children with other women but there is a
Principle explanation, then please give us that explanation. Don't treat us
like little children who are incapable of understanding. Treat us with a
small measure of the kind of respect leadership demands from us.
If the rumors are true then BY FAR what is doing the greatest amount of
damage to both you and all that you are trying to accomplish is all the
denial. What was done in the past will remain in the past once it is owned up
to. The denial is what keeps it current and taints everything that the
leadership does in your name.
Every time a leader says that this is nothing more than satanic accusation;
every time that a leader says that this is unthinkable and that a member is
betraying you and your ideals for so much as considering such a possibility;
every instance of denial is as much a betrayal of truth as anything that was
done long ago and so increases the amount of damage which can be done
once the truth is finally revealed (if the truth is that these are not mere
rumors).
In the end, the truth will indeed come out. If nothing else, historians will
learn of it.
I'm sure I speak for everyone when I say that we hope the truth concerning
all will be revealed, by you, before you go to the spiritual realm. I love
you and your ideals too much to want to see the day in which, at least in the
end, there was not proof given that Reverend Moon is an honest man.
Sincerely,
Tim
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seven
September 10, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
I live in an Hispanic neighborhood in New York City. Whenever I see young
men hanging out on street corners having conversation, they always speak
real loud and slap each other's hand every other sentence or so. Once they
are old enough to drive cars, they always buy real big cars and honk their
horns as much as possible.
I always view this with a mixture of joy and sorrow. Joy in that it is an
expression of their innate sense that they are God's Sons. "Look at me. I'm
important." Sorrow because they have so little to feel good about, so little
to draw attention to themselves, other than the noise they create.
Most white people in the neighborhood look at this same situation with little
more than contempt. They don't see why the Hispanic people have to be so
loud.
Most white people already feel good about themselves. Most of the projected
images in society reinforce their already pervasive sense of self-worth.
Most Korean people seem to have inferiority complexes. The toad-in-the-
well syndrome (isn't that what they call it?). They seem to have an obsession
with measuring their self-worth by position obtained; places travel to; who
they associate with; how much money they have to spend.
On a personal level, there is nothing wrong with that. They are all good
measurements of success, and the desire to succeed is of God. Indeed, there
is a lot that is very good about it as long as the status and success was
bought and paid for by their own hard work. If so, even white Americans
will admire such an individual a great deal.
Being a Korean, you always do things with a lot of flash. Spare no expense.
The best of everything.
That would be a most wonderful trait if indeed you were a wealthy
industrialist and it was the profits of your own industry that you were
spending.
It would be a wonderful thing if the money you were spending was not
impoverishing (if not sending to jail) so many others who are merely being
used to raise that money.
It would be a wonderful thing if the heart behind your giving money to
famous people truly was to give to them; and not merely to pay for the status
of having that individual attend your event so that you can be photographed
with them or have their name listed in your resume.
It would be a wonderful thing if it actually created substantial result.
But how many of those rich and famous people who have attended your
conferences over the years would show up for the next one if the invitation
stated that they had to pay their own way? THAT would be the accurate
measurement of the success of your investment in all of those conferences.
Has all that money really bought you anything beyond photo-opportunities?
Has it bought you any substantial friends and admirers? Or has it merely
bought you an endless line of people who are more than happy to pose for a
photo, say a few words, as long as the cash keeps flowing in their direction?
You do all this in America thinking that Americans will be impressed. What
you don't seem to understand is that the average American already feels
good enough about themselves that they don't view "loud noise" as being
admirable. They all know why all those big names attend your conferences.
Far from admiring you for having paid them, they think less of the big
names for having accepted the invitation. That's why all the big names back
off, distance themselves from you, once the glare of media shines upon them.
"I'm not doing it for Reverend Moon. I'm doing it for family." says George
Bush. What does the average American remember upon hearing that? That
George thinks that "family" is good? Big deal. Every politician would say
that.
No. What Americans remember is George squirming, trying to distance
himself from Reverend Moon.
Barbara Walters attends your event. Big plus for the relatively few in
attendance.
Barbara Walters later tells the national news media that she had no idea it
was connected to Reverend Moon and that she will never do it again.
All things considered, from the perspective of America, did you gain or lose
by paying Barbara Walters to attend your event? Huge loss, I'd say.
Meanwhile, the average Japanese member can't afford to eat at McDonalds,
but they think that is okay because their TREMENDOUS sacrifice is buying
all this great result in America. They know it is, because they get to see the
photos.
It is so sad.
Whose fault is it? Americans?
You say that you want the best of the best to join your movement.
Well I think that God prepared and gave you the best of the best in America
but the structure of your movement never created the space for you to meet
them, much less allow them to win your trust and advise you. All you meet
are the ones who will only smile and agree; the ones who don't want to rock
the boat they are riding on. In reality, they are using you just like all the
"big names".
The best of the best are those who know better. They are the ones who could
have told you that the way you are doing it is not going to work in America.
But all of those people, just because they were thinking critically and had
the courage to express that criticism, got drummed out of the movement
and/or were accused of being satanic for thinking differently than you.
I have done eight years of fundraising for your movement; I'm one of the best
artists who has ever lived; I spent ten years putting together a very
substantial art foundation on the worldwide level.
Yet Zin Moon Kim told me to stop doing art, give up the foundation and
move to my hometown simply because I was critical of the fact that your son
was beating up people without so much as having a conversation with them.
You speak so much about internal things; but your movement is one of the
most external I have ever seen. You speak about the importance of
substantial result; but spend a lot of other people's money on hollow
symbols.
But that's okay. I really wouldn't mind. All the substantial people, all
those who truly do know better; if they really are as good as I hope they
are, they will find their own way to build the Kingdom. The providence will
move on.
It's just the thought of all those Japanese going broke, and how they are
being lied to about what their sacrifice is buying.
It's wrong.
Sincerely,
Tim
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eight
September 11, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
The first thing which appealed to me about Principle was it's angle on John
the Baptist and the fact that Jesus did not come to die. That cleared up
issues which, for me, never made any sense.
Indeed, back when I joined what was then called "the family", the idea that
our movement had the answers (whereas other religions required faith) was
a common theme of many lectures which I attended.
However, something which never made any sense to me in the Unification
Church was the reality, and strict enforcement, of the Cain - Abel
relationship. The reality of those relationships (actually, the lack of
relationship) within the movement wasn't anything like what I understood
Principle to say that they were suppose to be.
The Principle says that Cain must unite with Abel. You have said that unity
is a natural condition, much like a baby to it's mother's breast. According
to that definition, the only incentive which would create the desire within
Cain to unite with Abel would be if Cain felt love from, and for, Abel. In
restoration (at least from my own experience as a Tribal Messiah) Cain
doesn't HAVE TO do anything. It is Abel who must inspire Cain to WANT
TO unite.
But within the Unification Church, there is no loving seduction of members
by leaders. Indeed, in spite of the fact that Principle also says that nothing
grows without give and take (another huge contradiction within the
movement) there is hardly anything in the way of two-way conversation.
Leaders give direction, and members are told that they MUST unite or they
will be betraying God (or whatever).
No love.
No relationship.
No give and take.
It's a complete contradiction of everything in The Principle. The problem was
movement wide, members were leaving in droves because of it, and yet no
one ever did anything about it.
And if you REALLY wanted to see leaders go ballistic, try drawing their
attention to this contradiction. It became the fast track to declared satanic
possession. You could lose your job, housing, reputation, or even be
physically abused by "Abel".
This was not an isolated instance within the movement.
This was the pattern OF the movement.
Where did this false pattern start?
Just as Principle cleared up some foggy issues pertaining to the Bible; oddly
enough, the book written by Mr. Pak (commonly referred to as "The Six
Marys") gave me a glimpse through the haze which had been my Unification
Church experience. Maybe I am the only person who was inspired by Mr.
Pak's book.
I'm a truth junkie. I don't care about an individual's feelings or reputation
per se. Feelings and reputations based on anything less than the truth
become little more than dust in the providential wind. It is only the truth
which lasts.
I have no way of knowing whether Mr. Pak's book is true.
What I do know is that his book gave me the best explanation to date for the
perverse Cain - Abel relationships within your movement, the total lack of
give and take, and the extremely harsh judgment which befalls any "Cain"
who has the courage to question "Abel".
The book basically says that you had a false start, realized your error,
initiated a cover-up, and started again. I think that the false start and new
beginning are innocuous enough. The real problem (as stated in "six" of this
series) was the cover-up.
For the cover-up to hold, you had to initiate a policy concerning areas in
which Cain was not to go. Questions which were not to be asked. Over time,
this easily evolved into a policy of "no questions asked". Abel merely
commands. Cain follows.
Leaders beneath you simply followed your pattern. They felt perfectly safe in
doing so because how were you going to stop them? It was you who started
the pattern.
This is the only explanation that I can think of for why a pattern, which was
obviously devastating to our movement, lasted for so long and no one,
including you, ever did anything to put a stop to it (other than a few feeble
lines in a handful of speeches). It had to start with you.
Is my theory true?
If not, what explains the lack of relationships between leaders and members?
Why is it such a horrendous "sin" for a member to question a leader when
(according to my own experience) a questioning person is an interested
person, and an interested person is the most precious commodity you can
find toward building The Kingdom.
Why do so many see this series of letters which I am writing to you as being
some kind of offense against the providence? I sincerely do not understand
this.
In the restoration process, isn't it natural, even very good, that Cain ask
Abel the questions which trouble his heart?
Not in the Unification Church!
Why is that?
Sincerely,
Tim
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TIM's 18 LETTERS TO REV. SUN MYUNG MOON
If you read Tim's spiritual testimony you may have been inspired by
his experience with the Divine Principle. I know that I was inspired.
However through reading the following letters you will discover that there is
something wrong in the Unification Church. Someone is telling lies and
trying to cover up scandal and abuse. Read these letters and find out what
has been going on behind the scenes of HSA.
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one
September 4, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
This will be the first of a series of letters I will be writing to you. For
the most part, the purpose of the letters is to seek answers to questions
which I think need to be asked if we are to succeed in accomplishing all of
the things that you proclaim to be our purpose.
In the way of introduction, let me say that I am an American, a college
graduate, who joined the movement in 1975 and spent 8 years fundraising.
Other highlights of my "church life" would be that I am the guy who Hyun
Jin smacked around a couple of times, and who Hyo Jin use to regularly say
he would like to kill at Belvedere Sunday Service. Both of those situations
were the result of my publicly asking the kind of questions which I would
now like to ask you.
I am also an artist of considerable merit. I am presently represented by the
best gallery in New York City (resume enclosed).
My first question would be: Why is it (seeing as how the major point which
makes our movement an advancement over all religious movements which
came before it) why is it that in our movement NO ONE ever becomes
"officially true"?
We often speak of the failure of Christianity as being that
Christians make Jesus out to be God, thus cutting off their own path to
divinity. But isn't it true that we in the Unification Church do the exact
same thing to you? Isn't it also true that you encourage, if not enforce,
this false mindset?
Though you give a lot of lip-service to the opposite concept ("You must
become sunnies who are a source of the light; rather than moonies who only
reflect.") isn't it true that, in reality, the way the movement is
structured, that it is blasphemy to think of oneself as being even your
potential equal?
Indeed, for a member to so much as question you or your
decisions seemingly becomes just cause for that member to be accused of
being Satan (in my case, be physically abused and then have my business
destroyed) while the entire leadership mutely stands by without so much as
having a conversation with the member. When that happens (as it often has)
doesn't that undermine the confidence of all potential Tribal Messiahs to
believe in their own thought processes?
Isn't it a fact that in the movement you created, you are placed on a
pedestal so far beyond the reach of members and that we are made to believe
that we are unworthy to so much as tie your shoe?
Doesn't that reality make a mockery of all that you teach?
Doesn't that reality doom to failure all that you and so many of us have
invested our lives in trying to accomplish?
Isn't the Unification Church merely Christianity II?
Sincerely,
Tim
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two
September 5, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
I believe that you have a very special spiritual foundation and that you are
indeed the chosen one, The Messiah, whose mission it is to usher in the
Completed Testament Age. I have no problem with that.
But isn't that title, more or less, just a position? Please don't
misunderstand me. I don't mean to belittle your accomplishments. Not at all.
I am probably your biggest fan.
What I mean to say is, in light of everything (past, present and on and on
for all eternity)......it's not really about Sun Myung Moon. Is it? I mean,
in light of everything, looking at it from the perspective of the biggest
possible picture, ultimately, even you will be just another guy in The
Kingdom. Isn't that true? As things progress, as more and more spiritual
doors begin to open, won't each succeeding generation become more wise? I
would certainly hope that, 10,000 years from now, the most stupid person
on earth will be infinitely more wise than you and I are today. Isn't that your
hope (as it is my own)?
So in one respect, your position is simply that you are the first of what
will ultimately be billions and billions of others (the vast majority of whom
will have spiritual foundations which are even better than your own).
I see you as being like a mile marker along the providential road. Your
appearance is a sign which proclaims to the world "This kind of a
relationship with God is now possible."
But if it was just you and no one else, your appearance wouldn't be an event
having great providential significance. You'd just become yet another
religious icon, and the world has seen many of those.
The verifying truth behind the sign, actually, is not you. It's us. The
thousands and thousands who were born with foundations which are actually very similar to your own. The sign isn't about Sun Myung Moon. It's
about a special time in God's Providence in which many, many, many people
will begin to experience and respond to God directly.
Isn't that why we all joined so easily? Nobody had to do heavy indemnity
conditions to clear the way for most of us. We jumped into the church. We
were already searching. We didn't respond to our "spiritual parents" or even
to you. Not really. We were responding to THE GOD IN US just like you
were when you began your own providential mission.
So the truth is, the biggest difference between you and a lot of us is only a
step or two. I happen to think that I am personally as close to being your
twin as any identical twins you will ever find. I understand your experience
with God. I have the same experience.
So here is my problem. My question for the day.
How come YOU got all the credit?
You know what I mean? I mean, without us, you couldn't have
accomplished anything. You'd still just be some guy in Korea who no one
knows or cares about.
Every member in this church played a HUGE role in every single positive
event that happened in the history of The Unification Church. Yet members
never get any credit. You do.
But okay. That's fair. Most of the ideas (authoritarian institution that The
Unification Church is) were indeed your own. If you want to take all the
credit, I think that is fair.
However, in such case, I think what would be equally fair is that you also
take responsibility for all the failures. I think that, if we drew up an
accurate balance sheet, the truth is that most of your initiatives have been
total failures. Many embarrassingly so.
But you never get blamed for the failures (if indeed the failures are even
mentioned again). We do. "We didn't unite (or pray hard enough, or work
hard enough, whatever)."
Isn't that true? When the history of our movement is finally recorded by
objective historians, won't they write that all of "your victories" were
blown all out of proportion in terms of their actual result; and all of your
failures were blamed on others or were buried?
So okay. This could merely be the story of an egotistical man. So what?
I'll tell you so what.
The success of God's Providence hinges on members (and others) ability to
believe in themselves as truly being God's Sons and Daughters. It's a
confidence game. If they believe, they will act. If they act, God will work.
While growing up in the kindergarten that The Unification Church usually
is, YOU were the example of what a True Man looked like. For members to
have confidence in themselves, they had to be able to see themselves in
YOU. If they don't (or can't) all that schooling was for nothing.
How can members see themselves in this totally unrealistic guy that your
hype has made you out to be? You have them all believing (or at least HAD
them all believing) that you could do no wrong. Everything you initiated was
GREAT (in letters ten feet tall) and all the failures were because other people
didn't unite with your perfect ideas.
Your hype does not increase a member's confidence in their own abilities.
Your hype destroys member's confidence. It makes them feel totally
insecure. How can they see themselves in this man who can seemingly do no
wrong? They become totally paralyzed with hesitation, waiting to hear that
absolute voice from God which will tell them nothing but perfect moves to
make (when you and I know that no such voice exists).
So my question for today is: Why do you take all the credit? Why don't you
ever publicly admit to your failures?
Is your personal pride so great that you are willing to screw up God's
Providence rather than publicly admit to personal flaws?
I really don't understand.
Sincerely,
Tim
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three
September 6, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
What was it that made Abraham's sacrifice of Isaac so meaningful?
Wasn't it Abraham's immense love for his son, as well as Isaac's
unconditional love and trust in his father? If Abraham was just some
cold-hearted Khomeini-type guy who was only interested in his own concept
of God's will; if Isaac had to be dragged to the altar while kicking and
screaming: would the offering have then had any significance at all?
According to your own words, restoration begins with the individual, then
family, clan, etc.
Is it okay to skip a level? (This will be my question for the day.)
Didn't you skip family level?
Did you win their unconditional love and support? Or did you just drag
them to the altar?
When you skip a level and move on, what happens?
Don't you then create deformity reflecting that which was left unfulfilled?
Look at the failure of the American movement. Why did so many come, and
then go?
Wasn't it because leadership never followed through on the initial promise of
True Love? Wasn't it because leadership never bothered to win member's
unconditional love and support before dragging them to the altar of
sacrifice?
Most of the leaders of your movement, including your own children, have a
history of ruthlessly judging members without benefit of any kind of a
relationship. Indeed, in many cases, those leaders have never even met or
had a single conversation with the member. Zin Moon Kim, who was in
charge of America at the time, the man you appointed, told me to give up art,
stop writing (thinking), and move to my hometown for one year before he
would agree to meet with me FOR THE FIRST TIME. Hyun Jin destroyed
my business without ever having had a two-way conversation. Hyo Jin made
me infamous by speaking of how much he hated me at Belvedere without
ever having looked into my eyes.
The Bible says that you will know him by his fruit.
Where did this strange pattern of sacrificing members before creating a bond
of love and trust begin?
(Actually I have two theories, but the other will be the topic for another
letter.)
Sincerely,
Tim
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four
September 7, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
"Ladies and Gentlemen, it is my great privilege to announce to you the
establishment of the first true family. My wife and I, together with our 13
children and 24 grandchildren are absolutely dedicated to serving God and
humanity. With three generations in one family, we have achieved, on the
family level, the central root, the central trunk and the central bud of the
"Tree of Life" mentioned in the Bible."
from "True Parents and the Completed Testament Age"
I was recently informed that you requested that members not gossip about
problems within your family and that you would take care of those
problems.
As happy as I am to hear that you are finally going to take care of your own
family, in light of the above quoted speech I hardly see where you have the
grounds to make such a request.
How can you and your family go all over the world, speaking at events
organized by members, spending (I imagine) millions of dollars which was
raised by members, all to proclaim the arrival of "The True Family" and then
expect everyone to not take an interest in that family? Isn't that rather
unrealistic?
The way I see it, you only have two ways to go with this thing and come out
of it with your integrity intact: 1) You can publicly (at very least within
the movement) withdraw the proclamation and declare your family to now
be a private one upon which no church funds will be spent. 2) You can come
forward (at very least within the movement) with a full account of the truth
behind "the gossip", clear the air and let members decide for themselves
whether or not your family is true, and whether or not they want to go on
supporting both you and your family (or the movement of which your family
is the supposed "central bud") with their money and effort.
In no way do I see unquestioning silence as a viable option among human
beings.
The way I and most people define "true" is truthful.
Within the movement, it is generally understood that true people are also
public people.
It was you who declared your family to be the most public of all on earth,
and I think it contradicts nearly everything you stand for to now say that no
one should question (think about) the validity of your own proclamation.
So today's question is: Which way do you want to go with this thing?
Sincerely,
Tim
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five
September 8, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
I am an active member on an internet forum (one-world-com) which is
loosely comprised of Unification Church members. I am also posting these
letters on that forum.
In response to my last letter ("four") someone wrote that my self-righteous
tone would be counter-productive in regards to having you receive what was
actually a valid point.
In response to that post, I related a couple of experiences which I have had
at East Garden. (They were my only two experiences at East Garden.) On
both of those occasions you said the same thing, I felt, directly to me. What
you said was that, when you began your mission, everyone around you was
always urging you to be more diplomatic. They told you that you were
making everyone angry and afraid. But you said that you never listened to
any of them. You concluded by saying that we would be surprised by how,
after ten years, all of that anger and fear turns into respect.
On the one occasion, I was standing directly behind your chair when you
said this. After saying it, you turned and looked me right in the eye.
I doubt that you remember that, but I want you to know that those two
occasions have always served as a great inspiration to me. Indeed, it is
those words (along with your advice that we follow our conscience, even if it
contradicts your own direction) which serve as the inspiration behind this
series.
I also would like you to know that I have had a couple hundred dreams in
which you played a role. Those dreams never leave me feeling that I have
chosen the wrong course.
.......
As a member of the Unification Church in these modern times, I hear a lot of
strange things about what went on, what goes on; and I'm sure I speak for
many when I say that we just don't know what to think about it all.
On the one hand, it would be so convenient to believe that we are the good
guys and that all of the strange stories are nothing more than "satanic
accusation" (which is pretty much the official church line concerning
anything said by anyone that isn't 100% positive).
On the other hand, in this age of Tribal Messiahship, it is up to each one of
us to take individual responsibility. Some people, due to their easy-going
nature, have no problem glossing over messy details and sticking to the
positive. I'm not one of those people. I have to know the truth behind the
accusations before I go testifying about anyone, you included.
My questioning probably began when I attended your trial here in New York
City. I don't know if you will recall, but I was the church artist assigned
to draw pictures of the proceedings for the historical record. I attended
every day, sitting directly in front of your wife. (I was told that you liked
my drawings.)
During that trial, all kinds of unusual things came to light.
You declared that this was the first time that you had heard about most of
it, and I believed you.
I believed you because I had no way of knowing otherwise. That's the way it
always is concerning "accusations". It's always "he said - she said" and how
am I suppose to know who is lying? My experiences with you up to that
point always led me to believe that you were 100% truthful in every way.
We all want to believe that you are 100% truthful in every way. We would
still love you even if you were not, but it sure would be nice to have this
one person who we could trust completely; unrealistic as that might be.
Everyone likes fairy tales.
Someone once told me that, according to scientific method, the exception
disproves the rule. This will be my question for the day. Do you believe
that? Do you believe that if I can find a single instance in which I can
prove that you were less than truthful, do you believe that I then have the
right, indeed, as a Son of God who is every bit as committed to restoring
mankind as you are, the responsibility to question everything that you say
until you can prove to me the truth behind your statements?
The photo of (allegedly) you carrying Mr. Pak.
I have been told by a number of people that you have said that the photo is
not of you.
And yet that photo has been used repeated, as recently as the video made by
Hyo Jin, as being a photo of you. Surely you are aware of this and did not
put a stop to it.
Isn't that an example of you being less than truthful? Isn't that an example
of you manipulating the minds of people by fabricating a lie?
Am I wrong to conclude that you are not above lying if you think it will
serve your best interests?
Wouldn't you agree that this legitimately opens the door for me to ask all
kinds of questions?
Sincerely,
Tim
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six
September 9, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
I have a very good friend. Just recently she told me that she had a secret
that she has been keeping from me. She told me that, as a child, she was
sexually molested.
After all the tears, the first thing she said was "I'm sorry to have told you
this. Does it effect your feelings for me?"
Now I'm sure that you and anyone with a heart can realize how silly her
question was. Anything that happened a long time ago has got nothing to do
with my feelings for this person (beyond sympathy). I love who I know her
to be now. If anything, I can love her even more now because she has
demonstrated a greater level of love and trust in me in that she shared her
long kept secret.
Yet I think there is something to be learned about the nature of secrets from
her very sincere question.
Mistakes and problems are no big deal once dealt with. Once understood,
they get filed away. Everyone has made mistakes and so no one has much in
the way of grounds to accuse another for having done the same.
However, what makes mistakes and problems HUGE is when they are kept
secret. They fester and become seemingly thousands of times bigger than
they actually are. "If you reveal your secret everyone will hate you" satan
whispers. We then find ourselves doing and saying things we would never
do and say if it were not for the "cover-up". The secret begins to taint
everything.
I'm sure that, by now, everyone in the movement has heard the rumors
concerning alleged illegitimate children belonging to you. That's a fact.
Even if it is just a rumor, it is a fact that such a rumor exists. It needs
to be publicly (at least within the movement) confronted. Otherwise, it will
NEVER go away.
I have heard about two sons (and more vague rumors of others). One grew
up in DC; another is in Korea today. The one in Korea is very public about
it. He even has teachings on the subject. I'm told that, in his own way, he
supports your teaching.
Of course, Unification Church officialdom says that all of this is wild
unsubstantiated rumor by people who are satanic and trying to destroy the
heavenly movement. I would probably be more inclined to believe them had
it not been for the many instances in which they have said the same thing
about me, and many others, whose only "offense" was to seek answers to
obvious questions. Unification Church officialdom has become pretty much
of a joke in the eyes of most members who think.
Personally speaking, what makes me believe that there is truth behind the
rumors is the simple fact that I can't imagine why, in this age of DNA
testing, anyone would personally make such a claim were it not true.
I only see three ways that you can deal with this, and you absolutely MUST
deal with it or the movement centering on you will disintegrate.
1. If it is totally false, say so and publicly challenge the people involved
to DNA testing.
2. If it was simply a mistake of yours, way back when you were a less
mature person than the person we all know you to be today, or if it was a
mistake rooted in a different understanding of restoration than that which
you understand today, then please: simply admit the mistake. We will
understand. We will love you even more for having trusted us. It will help
us to mature also. I doubt that there is a single person in the Unification
Church who does not still deeply care about Hyo Jin Nim in spite of
everything.
3. If it is true that you had children with other women but there is a
Principle explanation, then please give us that explanation. Don't treat us
like little children who are incapable of understanding. Treat us with a
small measure of the kind of respect leadership demands from us.
If the rumors are true then BY FAR what is doing the greatest amount of
damage to both you and all that you are trying to accomplish is all the
denial. What was done in the past will remain in the past once it is owned up
to. The denial is what keeps it current and taints everything that the
leadership does in your name.
Every time a leader says that this is nothing more than satanic accusation;
every time that a leader says that this is unthinkable and that a member is
betraying you and your ideals for so much as considering such a possibility;
every instance of denial is as much a betrayal of truth as anything that was
done long ago and so increases the amount of damage which can be done
once the truth is finally revealed (if the truth is that these are not mere
rumors).
In the end, the truth will indeed come out. If nothing else, historians will
learn of it.
I'm sure I speak for everyone when I say that we hope the truth concerning
all will be revealed, by you, before you go to the spiritual realm. I love
you and your ideals too much to want to see the day in which, at least in the
end, there was not proof given that Reverend Moon is an honest man.
Sincerely,
Tim
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seven
September 10, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
I live in an Hispanic neighborhood in New York City. Whenever I see young
men hanging out on street corners having conversation, they always speak
real loud and slap each other's hand every other sentence or so. Once they
are old enough to drive cars, they always buy real big cars and honk their
horns as much as possible.
I always view this with a mixture of joy and sorrow. Joy in that it is an
expression of their innate sense that they are God's Sons. "Look at me. I'm
important." Sorrow because they have so little to feel good about, so little
to draw attention to themselves, other than the noise they create.
Most white people in the neighborhood look at this same situation with little
more than contempt. They don't see why the Hispanic people have to be so
loud.
Most white people already feel good about themselves. Most of the projected
images in society reinforce their already pervasive sense of self-worth.
Most Korean people seem to have inferiority complexes. The toad-in-the-
well syndrome (isn't that what they call it?). They seem to have an obsession
with measuring their self-worth by position obtained; places travel to; who
they associate with; how much money they have to spend.
On a personal level, there is nothing wrong with that. They are all good
measurements of success, and the desire to succeed is of God. Indeed, there
is a lot that is very good about it as long as the status and success was
bought and paid for by their own hard work. If so, even white Americans
will admire such an individual a great deal.
Being a Korean, you always do things with a lot of flash. Spare no expense.
The best of everything.
That would be a most wonderful trait if indeed you were a wealthy
industrialist and it was the profits of your own industry that you were
spending.
It would be a wonderful thing if the money you were spending was not
impoverishing (if not sending to jail) so many others who are merely being
used to raise that money.
It would be a wonderful thing if the heart behind your giving money to
famous people truly was to give to them; and not merely to pay for the status
of having that individual attend your event so that you can be photographed
with them or have their name listed in your resume.
It would be a wonderful thing if it actually created substantial result.
But how many of those rich and famous people who have attended your
conferences over the years would show up for the next one if the invitation
stated that they had to pay their own way? THAT would be the accurate
measurement of the success of your investment in all of those conferences.
Has all that money really bought you anything beyond photo-opportunities?
Has it bought you any substantial friends and admirers? Or has it merely
bought you an endless line of people who are more than happy to pose for a
photo, say a few words, as long as the cash keeps flowing in their direction?
You do all this in America thinking that Americans will be impressed. What
you don't seem to understand is that the average American already feels
good enough about themselves that they don't view "loud noise" as being
admirable. They all know why all those big names attend your conferences.
Far from admiring you for having paid them, they think less of the big
names for having accepted the invitation. That's why all the big names back
off, distance themselves from you, once the glare of media shines upon them.
"I'm not doing it for Reverend Moon. I'm doing it for family." says George
Bush. What does the average American remember upon hearing that? That
George thinks that "family" is good? Big deal. Every politician would say
that.
No. What Americans remember is George squirming, trying to distance
himself from Reverend Moon.
Barbara Walters attends your event. Big plus for the relatively few in
attendance.
Barbara Walters later tells the national news media that she had no idea it
was connected to Reverend Moon and that she will never do it again.
All things considered, from the perspective of America, did you gain or lose
by paying Barbara Walters to attend your event? Huge loss, I'd say.
Meanwhile, the average Japanese member can't afford to eat at McDonalds,
but they think that is okay because their TREMENDOUS sacrifice is buying
all this great result in America. They know it is, because they get to see the
photos.
It is so sad.
Whose fault is it? Americans?
You say that you want the best of the best to join your movement.
Well I think that God prepared and gave you the best of the best in America
but the structure of your movement never created the space for you to meet
them, much less allow them to win your trust and advise you. All you meet
are the ones who will only smile and agree; the ones who don't want to rock
the boat they are riding on. In reality, they are using you just like all the
"big names".
The best of the best are those who know better. They are the ones who could
have told you that the way you are doing it is not going to work in America.
But all of those people, just because they were thinking critically and had
the courage to express that criticism, got drummed out of the movement
and/or were accused of being satanic for thinking differently than you.
I have done eight years of fundraising for your movement; I'm one of the best
artists who has ever lived; I spent ten years putting together a very
substantial art foundation on the worldwide level.
Yet Zin Moon Kim told me to stop doing art, give up the foundation and
move to my hometown simply because I was critical of the fact that your son
was beating up people without so much as having a conversation with them.
You speak so much about internal things; but your movement is one of the
most external I have ever seen. You speak about the importance of
substantial result; but spend a lot of other people's money on hollow
symbols.
But that's okay. I really wouldn't mind. All the substantial people, all
those who truly do know better; if they really are as good as I hope they
are, they will find their own way to build the Kingdom. The providence will
move on.
It's just the thought of all those Japanese going broke, and how they are
being lied to about what their sacrifice is buying.
It's wrong.
Sincerely,
Tim
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eight
September 11, 1996
Dear Reverend Moon,
The first thing which appealed to me about Principle was it's angle on John
the Baptist and the fact that Jesus did not come to die. That cleared up
issues which, for me, never made any sense.
Indeed, back when I joined what was then called "the family", the idea that
our movement had the answers (whereas other religions required faith) was
a common theme of many lectures which I attended.
However, something which never made any sense to me in the Unification
Church was the reality, and strict enforcement, of the Cain - Abel
relationship. The reality of those relationships (actually, the lack of
relationship) within the movement wasn't anything like what I understood
Principle to say that they were suppose to be.
The Principle says that Cain must unite with Abel. You have said that unity
is a natural condition, much like a baby to it's mother's breast. According
to that definition, the only incentive which would create the desire within
Cain to unite with Abel would be if Cain felt love from, and for, Abel. In
restoration (at least from my own experience as a Tribal Messiah) Cain
doesn't HAVE TO do anything. It is Abel who must inspire Cain to WANT
TO unite.
But within the Unification Church, there is no loving seduction of members
by leaders. Indeed, in spite of the fact that Principle also says that nothing
grows without give and take (another huge contradiction within the
movement) there is hardly anything in the way of two-way conversation.
Leaders give direction, and members are told that they MUST unite or they
will be betraying God (or whatever).
No love.
No relationship.
No give and take.
It's a complete contradiction of everything in The Principle. The problem was
movement wide, members were leaving in droves because of it, and yet no
one ever did anything about it.
And if you REALLY wanted to see leaders go ballistic, try drawing their
attention to this contradiction. It became the fast track to declared satanic
possession. You could lose your job, housing, reputation, or even be
physically abused by "Abel".
This was not an isolated instance within the movement.
This was the pattern OF the movement.
Where did this false pattern start?
Just as Principle cleared up some foggy issues pertaining to the Bible; oddly
enough, the book written by Mr. Pak (commonly referred to as "The Six
Marys") gave me a glimpse through the haze which had been my Unification
Church experience. Maybe I am the only person who was inspired by Mr.
Pak's book.
I'm a truth junkie. I don't care about an individual's feelings or reputation
per se. Feelings and reputations based on anything less than the truth
become little more than dust in the providential wind. It is only the truth
which lasts.
I have no way of knowing whether Mr. Pak's book is true.
What I do know is that his book gave me the best explanation to date for the
perverse Cain - Abel relationships within your movement, the total lack of
give and take, and the extremely harsh judgment which befalls any "Cain"
who has the courage to question "Abel".
The book basically says that you had a false start, realized your error,
initiated a cover-up, and started again. I think that the false start and new
beginning are innocuous enough. The real problem (as stated in "six" of this
series) was the cover-up.
For the cover-up to hold, you had to initiate a policy concerning areas in
which Cain was not to go. Questions which were not to be asked. Over time,
this easily evolved into a policy of "no questions asked". Abel merely
commands. Cain follows.
Leaders beneath you simply followed your pattern. They felt perfectly safe in
doing so because how were you going to stop them? It was you who started
the pattern.
This is the only explanation that I can think of for why a pattern, which was
obviously devastating to our movement, lasted for so long and no one,
including you, ever did anything to put a stop to it (other than a few feeble
lines in a handful of speeches). It had to start with you.
Is my theory true?
If not, what explains the lack of relationships between leaders and members?
Why is it such a horrendous "sin" for a member to question a leader when
(according to my own experience) a questioning person is an interested
person, and an interested person is the most precious commodity you can
find toward building The Kingdom.
Why do so many see this series of letters which I am writing to you as being
some kind of offense against the providence? I sincerely do not understand
this.
In the restoration process, isn't it natural, even very good, that Cain ask
Abel the questions which trouble his heart?
Not in the Unification Church!
Why is that?
Sincerely,
Tim
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