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So yeah....lots of things on my mind this afternoon and not a soul around to share them with. The people in my life are either too busy, going through huge dramas or simply unaproachable or unintrested. One of the most important people in my life, the boy who I love more than life itself, is currently developing a nasty drug habbit and in my opinion cluess about the road that is ahead of him. This is reason enough to make me feel as though I am going insane with absoulutly no control over the situation. I worry about him 24 hours a day and really expect a phone call at any min. telling me that he is dead. This is not a good feeling.
My sister is going through her own self made drama at the moment. It's too exhausting to even go into but just be assured that its all I hear about when she is around.
My parents, whom I can usually depend on for a listening ear are currently so involved with their church work and activities that it is sickening. They are conducting a marriage workshop for couples and that seems to be all thats on their minds these days.
Ughh...I know I am complaining and that nobody likes to hear these things. I dont want to be one of "those people". But I have to be honest and say that sometines life is pretty hard and that sometimes it feels as though there is noone around who cares enough to actually sit down and let you share your heart with them. The closest thing I have to that is Nathan, he would have to be considered my best friend these days. I just feel like that sometimes I exhaust him with all of my concerns and worries and that is something I REALLY dont want to do. He is a wonderful friend and I dont want to do anything that will ruin that.
Well...this entry is starting to make me feel sick, so I think I am going to stop it before its really gets out of control and I make myself really look pathetic.
Or maybe its too late for that.
My sister is going through her own self made drama at the moment. It's too exhausting to even go into but just be assured that its all I hear about when she is around.
My parents, whom I can usually depend on for a listening ear are currently so involved with their church work and activities that it is sickening. They are conducting a marriage workshop for couples and that seems to be all thats on their minds these days.
Ughh...I know I am complaining and that nobody likes to hear these things. I dont want to be one of "those people". But I have to be honest and say that sometines life is pretty hard and that sometimes it feels as though there is noone around who cares enough to actually sit down and let you share your heart with them. The closest thing I have to that is Nathan, he would have to be considered my best friend these days. I just feel like that sometimes I exhaust him with all of my concerns and worries and that is something I REALLY dont want to do. He is a wonderful friend and I dont want to do anything that will ruin that.
Well...this entry is starting to make me feel sick, so I think I am going to stop it before its really gets out of control and I make myself really look pathetic.
Or maybe its too late for that.