A Reservoir
To all souls:
During this first month of summer, I have come to realize it isn't nearly as turbulent as last summer. I've had it in mind to top Summer '06, but for reasons dealing with cooperativeness, I don't think things will ever be the same. I think that the important thing is the thought that I shouldn't ever be trying to top something from the past- those conditions will never exist again. Just the same, today's conditions didn't exist two years ago. So, where we are is most important, it is what we must be most concerned with.
"Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34
This isn't a sermon, but a reflection... I suppose that everyone has already known these things. I just find them fascinating when I stop and think- last summer, I was concerned with the fact that it wasn't the summer before, that some things had changed and different people were on the brink of different things. When I returned to work in the winter, I realized on my first day back how much last summer held. And another damn year has passed...
Now, I am leaving the place I was sure I didn't like, but that God wanted me to go to, and in place of that is a disdain for the community I left and a positivity that I have spent the time that God wanted me to spend, and now it is up. I'm in the midst of a change of major, moving, and not all of my crews are here while the one that is here is splintering... the things I was thinking about last summer have shifted... I have gotten into rap, I have gotten into exponentially progressive thinking and action, I actually played a show (with mixed feelings) already (though, the aftermath is with mixed feelings- like, "Why haven't I played another one?"), I am re-introducing my exercise regiment instead of continuing with it, some people smoke/some people don't, some people have sex/some people don't, our country is in a recession run by corrupt oilmen and politicians with ulterior motives while our news corporations are focusing on things that don't matter and the trivial aspects about our nominees platforms... not to mention the fact that our nominees are beginning to show their grotesque underbellies and I think that our country is in for a long haul because US, the people: the majority- the societal babies of Wal-Mart and Starbuck's, but at the same time, everyone... we are too enamored with our comfort, living with our heads in the ground and our American fucking dream + the rest of the superficial things that expansion has brought on and irresponsible capitalism has crammed into our DNA...
I am scared now that I will never live my surreal and sublime ideals... I won't experience those things on this Earth because they are wrapped up in the things that are going to go out the window when we reach a 21st century depression and/or rioting, rebellion, and secession. I want to be proven wrong.
My writings and my music are the only thing that will embody these unique romantic ideas that I have about everything from romance to aesthetics to architecture to ambience to dress to common human baselines to morale to the appropriation of everything around us. I live and think inter-disciplinarily, I cannot escape this; but I am not saying that I want to or that God wants me to- I am in a place to use this disposition. What I really want is a beautiful romance built up in the correct way... something which is probably only done .001% of the time (even in relationships that are basically healthy- but maybe this is just my applying my idealism to everyone else around me, which can 't work in such specific opinions like this)... and I want to only focus my creative efforts towards these things. I would like to be able to trust others around me to do the job right, but as we all are starting to see... this is not the case. We can't spend another year "awake" (translation: as zombies), to wait for the next useless promotion, gimmick, tease, comfort, "nice idea"... IN ADDITION TO our nation spiraling abysmally, the energy crisis getting worse, foreign relations getting worse, the dollar getting worse, our spending hitting a flat line, our politicians successfully weaving even more intricate lies, commodities becoming luxuries...
we will cease to invent, to create, to adapt, we are sucking ourselves dry. Our entertainment industry is already as black as it can be... there is no saving things like American Idol (which is the most radical and horrifying display of the musical forum we are operating in right now) and billions of dollars production companies are spending on films that neither educate nor sufficiently entertain (and certainly don't inspire).
So, where are we this summer?
We all have some common bonds... they even go beyond what I just got done talking about. It is a deep notion concerning capitalism, appropriation, ingenuity, hard work, the United States of America's Constitution (which, the Patriot Act gravely acts against), sincerity, passion, respect (SEE: appropriation), logical operating procedures, beauty, the sublime, romance... to name but a few.
That is where we are. Do you see this?
Do you know where else we are? We are on a cusp. Whether we fall back to face corporate oppression or bond to move forwards into a country... to a Western Civilization... to an Eastern Civilization... to a GLOBE... unlike anything that has ever been seen before, that is the choice we have to make.
This isn't radical, it isn't a conversion, it is what it is- it is what it is supposed to be- albeit, a movement of progress into the future and not just a leap across the track to get back to where we are supposed to be. I want to see this happen. I want you to be provocative. I want you to live with a fiery conviction. I want you to wake up every day and be diligent. I want you to love and to live and to be positive.
Everything that I feel and see stems from my learnings from the Bible and while sitting under Brother Jess Smith Jr.
But, I also have many other teachings that I take into consideration and things I find necessary to at least consider as well (besides TRUE Christianity) such as capitalism, Daoism, scientific thought, the histories of art and music, a comprehensive knowledge of ALL philosophy, the overall history of both Western and Eastern civilization, idealism, the art of aesthetics, sociology, democracy...
and that is only elementary as I am elementary in my learning.
I started out wanting to talk about summer gems (aka, records) for the past two years and their impacting nature on my life and summer experience... but we'll settle for now.
During this first month of summer, I have come to realize it isn't nearly as turbulent as last summer. I've had it in mind to top Summer '06, but for reasons dealing with cooperativeness, I don't think things will ever be the same. I think that the important thing is the thought that I shouldn't ever be trying to top something from the past- those conditions will never exist again. Just the same, today's conditions didn't exist two years ago. So, where we are is most important, it is what we must be most concerned with.
"Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34
This isn't a sermon, but a reflection... I suppose that everyone has already known these things. I just find them fascinating when I stop and think- last summer, I was concerned with the fact that it wasn't the summer before, that some things had changed and different people were on the brink of different things. When I returned to work in the winter, I realized on my first day back how much last summer held. And another damn year has passed...
Now, I am leaving the place I was sure I didn't like, but that God wanted me to go to, and in place of that is a disdain for the community I left and a positivity that I have spent the time that God wanted me to spend, and now it is up. I'm in the midst of a change of major, moving, and not all of my crews are here while the one that is here is splintering... the things I was thinking about last summer have shifted... I have gotten into rap, I have gotten into exponentially progressive thinking and action, I actually played a show (with mixed feelings) already (though, the aftermath is with mixed feelings- like, "Why haven't I played another one?"), I am re-introducing my exercise regiment instead of continuing with it, some people smoke/some people don't, some people have sex/some people don't, our country is in a recession run by corrupt oilmen and politicians with ulterior motives while our news corporations are focusing on things that don't matter and the trivial aspects about our nominees platforms... not to mention the fact that our nominees are beginning to show their grotesque underbellies and I think that our country is in for a long haul because US, the people: the majority- the societal babies of Wal-Mart and Starbuck's, but at the same time, everyone... we are too enamored with our comfort, living with our heads in the ground and our American fucking dream + the rest of the superficial things that expansion has brought on and irresponsible capitalism has crammed into our DNA...
I am scared now that I will never live my surreal and sublime ideals... I won't experience those things on this Earth because they are wrapped up in the things that are going to go out the window when we reach a 21st century depression and/or rioting, rebellion, and secession. I want to be proven wrong.
My writings and my music are the only thing that will embody these unique romantic ideas that I have about everything from romance to aesthetics to architecture to ambience to dress to common human baselines to morale to the appropriation of everything around us. I live and think inter-disciplinarily, I cannot escape this; but I am not saying that I want to or that God wants me to- I am in a place to use this disposition. What I really want is a beautiful romance built up in the correct way... something which is probably only done .001% of the time (even in relationships that are basically healthy- but maybe this is just my applying my idealism to everyone else around me, which can 't work in such specific opinions like this)... and I want to only focus my creative efforts towards these things. I would like to be able to trust others around me to do the job right, but as we all are starting to see... this is not the case. We can't spend another year "awake" (translation: as zombies), to wait for the next useless promotion, gimmick, tease, comfort, "nice idea"... IN ADDITION TO our nation spiraling abysmally, the energy crisis getting worse, foreign relations getting worse, the dollar getting worse, our spending hitting a flat line, our politicians successfully weaving even more intricate lies, commodities becoming luxuries...
we will cease to invent, to create, to adapt, we are sucking ourselves dry. Our entertainment industry is already as black as it can be... there is no saving things like American Idol (which is the most radical and horrifying display of the musical forum we are operating in right now) and billions of dollars production companies are spending on films that neither educate nor sufficiently entertain (and certainly don't inspire).
So, where are we this summer?
We all have some common bonds... they even go beyond what I just got done talking about. It is a deep notion concerning capitalism, appropriation, ingenuity, hard work, the United States of America's Constitution (which, the Patriot Act gravely acts against), sincerity, passion, respect (SEE: appropriation), logical operating procedures, beauty, the sublime, romance... to name but a few.
That is where we are. Do you see this?
Do you know where else we are? We are on a cusp. Whether we fall back to face corporate oppression or bond to move forwards into a country... to a Western Civilization... to an Eastern Civilization... to a GLOBE... unlike anything that has ever been seen before, that is the choice we have to make.
This isn't radical, it isn't a conversion, it is what it is- it is what it is supposed to be- albeit, a movement of progress into the future and not just a leap across the track to get back to where we are supposed to be. I want to see this happen. I want you to be provocative. I want you to live with a fiery conviction. I want you to wake up every day and be diligent. I want you to love and to live and to be positive.
Everything that I feel and see stems from my learnings from the Bible and while sitting under Brother Jess Smith Jr.
But, I also have many other teachings that I take into consideration and things I find necessary to at least consider as well (besides TRUE Christianity) such as capitalism, Daoism, scientific thought, the histories of art and music, a comprehensive knowledge of ALL philosophy, the overall history of both Western and Eastern civilization, idealism, the art of aesthetics, sociology, democracy...
and that is only elementary as I am elementary in my learning.
I started out wanting to talk about summer gems (aka, records) for the past two years and their impacting nature on my life and summer experience... but we'll settle for now.