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Well. I figured I should post, because I haven't really in a while. The twins' birthday was last week and that was really confusing. I've never really liked April Fools day, but I hope they had fun. Haven't really heard from them since, which I guess could be good or bad.
Hermione really wants me to start the DA again but I don't really see the point, and anyway, I don't see why she can't do it. She's always been the smart one anyway. I know she could if she wanted to. But I guess I don't see the point, really. Tonks is a brilliant teacher, and we have Kingsley here too now, and Hestia with that medimagic club, not to mention Remus and Sirius. When he's here, anyway. I guess it just seems pretty stupid to have a student teaching people when we have real teachers here. And it's not like there's Umbridge or anyone around to stop us.
I've been thinking lately about what I want to do when I get out of here. I haven't really in a while. For a long time, I didn't realy know, because all I could think about was how good it was to be here. And then last year, just when I started thinking about it, I found out it might not matter what I want to do. And I don't know. I guess now I sort of don't care whether or not it matters because I want to do what I want and I'm tired of just doing what I'm supposed to. I guess being an Auror would be alright, but I don't even know if I want to do that anymore. It seems more like what I'm expected to do, and I'm tired of that.
And I guess sometimes.. well, most of the time, I think about where Pettigrew is. And if they're ever going to catch him. And if it'll matter if they do, anyway. And if I'm supposed to do that too, maybe. I'm the reason he got away in the first place. He'd probably be dead now if it wasn't for me. So maybe that makes him my responsibility. I'm tired of responsibilities.
Hermione really wants me to start the DA again but I don't really see the point, and anyway, I don't see why she can't do it. She's always been the smart one anyway. I know she could if she wanted to. But I guess I don't see the point, really. Tonks is a brilliant teacher, and we have Kingsley here too now, and Hestia with that medimagic club, not to mention Remus and Sirius. When he's here, anyway. I guess it just seems pretty stupid to have a student teaching people when we have real teachers here. And it's not like there's Umbridge or anyone around to stop us.
I've been thinking lately about what I want to do when I get out of here. I haven't really in a while. For a long time, I didn't realy know, because all I could think about was how good it was to be here. And then last year, just when I started thinking about it, I found out it might not matter what I want to do. And I don't know. I guess now I sort of don't care whether or not it matters because I want to do what I want and I'm tired of just doing what I'm supposed to. I guess being an Auror would be alright, but I don't even know if I want to do that anymore. It seems more like what I'm expected to do, and I'm tired of that.
And I guess sometimes.. well, most of the time, I think about where Pettigrew is. And if they're ever going to catch him. And if it'll matter if they do, anyway. And if I'm supposed to do that too, maybe. I'm the reason he got away in the first place. He'd probably be dead now if it wasn't for me. So maybe that makes him my responsibility. I'm tired of responsibilities.