Surprise!
"Sanctuary" By: ORIGENE
There is a place within all of us,
It is sacred,
so free of judgement,
And this is yours to share with who you wish.
This is your sanctuary.... sanctuary
There is no boundry ,
No rule to adhere
There is love,
There is hate
There is want,
There is need
There is greed...
You can laugh,
You can cry,
For you are free on the inside
This is your sanctuary.... sanctuary
Take this light,
Hold it high,
Feel it shine.
I know now that here inside...this is mine.
....this is yours.
This is your sanctuary.
***This song is so fucking AMAZING. I heard it for the first time tonight (Queer as Folk, Season 4 Soundtrack) and I love it so much. It's beautiful. DOWNLOAD IT if you care about me at all. Hee-hee.
I love to dance (I miss it, I have not been to a gay bar in a while).
Queer as Folk was such a great series.
--About my life recently (well, my Siamese cat is going crazy right now lol).
I have been depressed lately because I feel like no one ever really wants to hang out with me because I am their last choice or they ask me at the last minute.
I know that I am a great, sweet, caring, honest, loving, giving, fun, outgoing person and I swear I am a blast to go out with. Oh well. If they don't want to see me, it isn't my loss.
I want to be someone's FIRST choice to see.
Anyway, I want to join a racquetball league or do kickboxing again soon. I wanted a local gym to call me back but they never did. Bitches!
I already play tennis and I love it a lot so I figured no need to pay for that at a gym right.
DC Pride is today through June 10th. My brother (he's in Dallas, TX) might come to DC Pride's Street Festival next weekend or if he wants to go to Baltimore Pride (June 16th), I will go to that with him but DC Pride is MUCH better. I am hoping that he goes to that one instead.
Work sucks but it always does. I am so shocked that my blood pressure is not sky high thanks to that place. It makes me so miserable but I cannot seem to find a new job. I know how my boss feels about me and Rachel (chick I work with) and I don't care. I stopped caring what people think about me a while ago. Either you like me, love me, or don't. I would hope most people like/love me but I can't please everyone in the world.
My dad is so lost these days. I love him so much and he just needs to get better and STAY that way. It isn't healthy at all to stop drinking, then start, stop, then start, etc. I will be such a mess without him. He was the ONLY person in my life for the longest time and I know that he cares about me more than anyone. I could cry just thinking about it. I remember a few times when he wanted to kill himself (he tried to once when I was younger) and it breaks my heart when he talks like that because I want him to live forever (you know if I had it my way lol) and be happy and healthy. I wish that I could do more for him. He knows that I would do anything in the whole world for him. His crazy girlfriend does not help him really. She only adds to things. She did not even call him on his birthday and one night I drove over 3 hours in traffic to see him at rehab just to say hello, I miss you, I love you and I hope that you get well and she didn't call him that day to say she wasn't going to make it. She makes me sick.
I really want to go back to school (my parents won't pay for it) and since I live on my own, I can't afford to pay all the bills plus pay for school also. I tried Financial Aid a few times but they just dick me around.
It bothers me but I know that I will go back. I want to so bad.
Well, I don't know if anyone even reads this but I guess I will see.
Take care.
I don't know if I will write in here again!
~ Keli ~
There is a place within all of us,
It is sacred,
so free of judgement,
And this is yours to share with who you wish.
This is your sanctuary.... sanctuary
There is no boundry ,
No rule to adhere
There is love,
There is hate
There is want,
There is need
There is greed...
You can laugh,
You can cry,
For you are free on the inside
This is your sanctuary.... sanctuary
Take this light,
Hold it high,
Feel it shine.
I know now that here inside...this is mine.
....this is yours.
This is your sanctuary.
***This song is so fucking AMAZING. I heard it for the first time tonight (Queer as Folk, Season 4 Soundtrack) and I love it so much. It's beautiful. DOWNLOAD IT if you care about me at all. Hee-hee.
I love to dance (I miss it, I have not been to a gay bar in a while).
Queer as Folk was such a great series.
--About my life recently (well, my Siamese cat is going crazy right now lol).
I have been depressed lately because I feel like no one ever really wants to hang out with me because I am their last choice or they ask me at the last minute.
I know that I am a great, sweet, caring, honest, loving, giving, fun, outgoing person and I swear I am a blast to go out with. Oh well. If they don't want to see me, it isn't my loss.
I want to be someone's FIRST choice to see.
Anyway, I want to join a racquetball league or do kickboxing again soon. I wanted a local gym to call me back but they never did. Bitches!
I already play tennis and I love it a lot so I figured no need to pay for that at a gym right.
DC Pride is today through June 10th. My brother (he's in Dallas, TX) might come to DC Pride's Street Festival next weekend or if he wants to go to Baltimore Pride (June 16th), I will go to that with him but DC Pride is MUCH better. I am hoping that he goes to that one instead.
Work sucks but it always does. I am so shocked that my blood pressure is not sky high thanks to that place. It makes me so miserable but I cannot seem to find a new job. I know how my boss feels about me and Rachel (chick I work with) and I don't care. I stopped caring what people think about me a while ago. Either you like me, love me, or don't. I would hope most people like/love me but I can't please everyone in the world.
My dad is so lost these days. I love him so much and he just needs to get better and STAY that way. It isn't healthy at all to stop drinking, then start, stop, then start, etc. I will be such a mess without him. He was the ONLY person in my life for the longest time and I know that he cares about me more than anyone. I could cry just thinking about it. I remember a few times when he wanted to kill himself (he tried to once when I was younger) and it breaks my heart when he talks like that because I want him to live forever (you know if I had it my way lol) and be happy and healthy. I wish that I could do more for him. He knows that I would do anything in the whole world for him. His crazy girlfriend does not help him really. She only adds to things. She did not even call him on his birthday and one night I drove over 3 hours in traffic to see him at rehab just to say hello, I miss you, I love you and I hope that you get well and she didn't call him that day to say she wasn't going to make it. She makes me sick.
I really want to go back to school (my parents won't pay for it) and since I live on my own, I can't afford to pay all the bills plus pay for school also. I tried Financial Aid a few times but they just dick me around.
It bothers me but I know that I will go back. I want to so bad.
Well, I don't know if anyone even reads this but I guess I will see.
Take care.
I don't know if I will write in here again!
~ Keli ~