i dont fucking care
i dont know. everything has been so weird lately. i had a weird conversation/argument with eric last night, i dont even know. but it made me think alot. and it kinda bummed me out, i felt so bad. like i felt like total shit.because i tend to blame.... everything on myself, like when something bad happens, i feel its all my fault. i dont know. i just feel so awkward now. i miss having someone to talk to? maybe thats what im trying to say. i dont even know. everything is falling apart. ive been listenin' to adams song alot lately, i dont think thats a good thing, that song makes me so sad. nothing to hold onto. i feel so.. blah. i dont even know how to explain it. i feel if i left, nobody would care... i dont know... people come to me for advice but never give me credit for trying to help, i dont even get a simple thanks. what the fuck ever. i hate myself, and your probably should too. help :(