Nov 03, 2008 15:54
i'm starting to feel a little better i went to a healer thursday. He made a lot of sense. I am an old sppirit.
I have no idea what i am going to do about college do i want to go? where should i go? what should i major in? what should my career be?
nothing makes any sense and it just keep sgetting more confusing. i need to rediscover what i love. it's an endless journey.
auditions for richard's show started today. I do not know how its going to go. not even half the people that auditioned will get a part. im not sure im good enough, but i guess we will see next week. last year to do everything there seems to be no time and i've wasted a quarter being ill and it just doesn't seem at all fair but cest la vie.
Halloween was okay went to the haunted corn maze but they didnt have it this year, but it was an adventure. my mommy made my costume pictures are on myspace, and it rained for the first time it was nice. Winter seems odly refreshing which is weird, but welcomed. I am ready to feel better wheather my body likes it or not.
I've been feeling much too old lately. Showing freshman around, training people to take my place when i'm gone, everything seems far away. Freshman getting into drugs, they are just babies a lot happens in 4 years and you do so much growing up it never seemed too true how much could change in 4 years and i guess 4 years can be a lifetime.