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weekend was okay.
but i suppose i would rather be alone at home then alone in a group of people trying not to cry because i feel out of place. i mean, it IS laurels thing. and it makes me feel bad when i sit there and know that no one really wants me around cuz i have nothing to do with the band.amanda just wanted to shop, zach just wanted to play baseball then shop with amanda. travis is 2 years younger than me and has no interest in hanging with me what so ever. laurel and tiffy just wanna hang out with luke and ethan and leonard and the band and eachother. my mom just wants to hang out with the other moms. and jane doesnt know me so just follows laurel, tiffy and ethan. then i got angry and blew up at amanda just as we were leaving, which totally made then entire trip seem horrible.
1st day of DT....drove out in sheilds from 4:30-5. i went 2nd (started at 4) so i didnt have to pull in or out of heritage, did pretty good, he didnt have to grab the wheel or use his brake.
i have a subconscious problem though. i somehow think that cuz the speedometer moves right when u speed up, and left when u slow, that when i turn the wheel it will affect my speed....this causes a swerving effect when i attempt to adjust my speed. i need to detatch my feet from my hands.
bye.
but i suppose i would rather be alone at home then alone in a group of people trying not to cry because i feel out of place. i mean, it IS laurels thing. and it makes me feel bad when i sit there and know that no one really wants me around cuz i have nothing to do with the band.amanda just wanted to shop, zach just wanted to play baseball then shop with amanda. travis is 2 years younger than me and has no interest in hanging with me what so ever. laurel and tiffy just wanna hang out with luke and ethan and leonard and the band and eachother. my mom just wants to hang out with the other moms. and jane doesnt know me so just follows laurel, tiffy and ethan. then i got angry and blew up at amanda just as we were leaving, which totally made then entire trip seem horrible.
1st day of DT....drove out in sheilds from 4:30-5. i went 2nd (started at 4) so i didnt have to pull in or out of heritage, did pretty good, he didnt have to grab the wheel or use his brake.
i have a subconscious problem though. i somehow think that cuz the speedometer moves right when u speed up, and left when u slow, that when i turn the wheel it will affect my speed....this causes a swerving effect when i attempt to adjust my speed. i need to detatch my feet from my hands.
bye.