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[real_as_it_is]

well i havent updated this thing in a few days i guess i havent really had the motivation to do so

we buried ricky yesterday

it was a nice service a lot of people a beautiful day

it was very hard very sad there were LOTS of tears

as i watched his casket get lowered into the ground a calming feeling came over me that was my closure that was what i needed it all didnt seem real until i knew he would not come back

i have been feeling all these new feelings and thinking all these new thoughts but its almost like they arent new like i have felt them all before like they are natural its like the way i am thinking and feeling is how i have supposed to of been thinking and feeling all along

i turn in your direction you sit there looking at me i flash a smile and quickly look away like i am afraid of what would happen if i stared one moment longer when i turn back to you there you are still there your eyes fixed on me and you are smiling

i lost my cell phone last night i think i know where it might be i am hoping my thoughts are right

but anywho im hungry and i want a ciggy butt so i am gonna go smoke

catch ya on the flipside hope you enjoyed the very brief update HeHe