One last time we'll lay down today
Things have been going well lately; for the first time in a long time I'm actually somewhat happy. I've fallen back into my "loner" mindset, and it feels great to be back where I was before this whole mess got started. Granted alot of my friends think that being a loner is a bad thing, but if I'm truly happy then who's to judge? I've realized that I'm alot better off on my own. I'm not fully in the clear yet, though, theres still a few loose ends that I have to tie up. But I'm definitely alot better.
I honestly don't know if I can ever be in a relationship, it just doesn't seem to work for me. I go for something and then I get burnt in the end, and I'm tired of having to pull myself back together. I just become a completely different person, and I don't like being that way. I guess I get kind of annoying, I'm dependent on others, and simple things that used to make me happy no longer work. Right now I could see myself dying alone, and that thought doesn't bother me in the least bit. Infact, I embrace it.
Anyways, I've come to the conclusion that there's nothing for me in this depressing, hell-hole of a town.. I hate pretty much everyone here, and I'm sure they don't think any better of me. But I take solace in the fact that in another five years they'll end up on welfare with three kids living in a one-bedroom apartment hating their lives more and more with each passing day. So I now have three options... I can either A: Possibly move to Tampa, or California and get an apartment with Keith, B: Move to Canada with Bill, Lamy, and Rec, or C: Get our former team members up/down to Maine and get an apartment together AWAY from York county. Either way will be difficult and would require alot of changes (with the exception of C), but I'm not scared, I need something new.
But yep that's it. Nothing really new or exciting. Oh yeah, I went to the pirates game on Saturday and uh... They pretty much got served. There were ALOT of good fights though =). Anycrap, I'll update this in probably another week. CYA!
"They say we live in our minds anyway"
I honestly don't know if I can ever be in a relationship, it just doesn't seem to work for me. I go for something and then I get burnt in the end, and I'm tired of having to pull myself back together. I just become a completely different person, and I don't like being that way. I guess I get kind of annoying, I'm dependent on others, and simple things that used to make me happy no longer work. Right now I could see myself dying alone, and that thought doesn't bother me in the least bit. Infact, I embrace it.
Anyways, I've come to the conclusion that there's nothing for me in this depressing, hell-hole of a town.. I hate pretty much everyone here, and I'm sure they don't think any better of me. But I take solace in the fact that in another five years they'll end up on welfare with three kids living in a one-bedroom apartment hating their lives more and more with each passing day. So I now have three options... I can either A: Possibly move to Tampa, or California and get an apartment with Keith, B: Move to Canada with Bill, Lamy, and Rec, or C: Get our former team members up/down to Maine and get an apartment together AWAY from York county. Either way will be difficult and would require alot of changes (with the exception of C), but I'm not scared, I need something new.
But yep that's it. Nothing really new or exciting. Oh yeah, I went to the pirates game on Saturday and uh... They pretty much got served. There were ALOT of good fights though =). Anycrap, I'll update this in probably another week. CYA!
"They say we live in our minds anyway"