Why "This Year"?
I don't get it. She had been okay with dying from such an early age. She never really planned much. But then she let the doctors get into her head that she'd be fine. And for the first time in her life, this year, she started saying "this is my year." I had never heard her talk about having kids, or anything "down-the-road" like that.
So then why couldn't she have passed away when she wasn't so hopeful? She hasn't passed on just yet, but she has already been resuscitated once. They are trying to give time for my Uncle to come see her. He was in Texas at the time, so he's doing his best, I'm sure, to come in and say goodbye.
I would journey down, but I wouldn't want anyone to be pulled away from her side to come and pick me up. I also, deep down, don't think I should. She won't hear me, it won't help her. It will only bring me down. So, it doesn't do anyone any good.
My Grandpa is showing a bit more emotion. The sorrow is peaking though his voice. So, I guess this is where it ends. I don't second guess his judgment. I like to think that passing on September 11th means that she was supposed to die years ago, but was too strong to be taken down so easily.
I still wish it hadn't been on "her year."
So then why couldn't she have passed away when she wasn't so hopeful? She hasn't passed on just yet, but she has already been resuscitated once. They are trying to give time for my Uncle to come see her. He was in Texas at the time, so he's doing his best, I'm sure, to come in and say goodbye.
I would journey down, but I wouldn't want anyone to be pulled away from her side to come and pick me up. I also, deep down, don't think I should. She won't hear me, it won't help her. It will only bring me down. So, it doesn't do anyone any good.
My Grandpa is showing a bit more emotion. The sorrow is peaking though his voice. So, I guess this is where it ends. I don't second guess his judgment. I like to think that passing on September 11th means that she was supposed to die years ago, but was too strong to be taken down so easily.
I still wish it hadn't been on "her year."