Sorry for ranting on for soo long.
Seeing and hearing the fighter jets race through that skies today made me feel really sick and empty in my stomach.
The whole way home I couldnt do anything other then sit and wonder what's happening to us, is it really nessicary that we have to practise perciscion and dropping missiles at un-manned targets off the coast 'just incase'. And like they've been saying is it really true that now, more then ever we're in danger of being attacked. It's a horrible feeling having the bigger picture slowly getting closer and closer to our reality, it's definatley not something were going to be be renowned for later on down the time lime. I'm just hoping that after these tests are done I will never have to see these planes up close and personal again.
I haven't been having very much fun dreaming latley.
For the past two weeks instead tf the normally twisted and extremly surreal dreams that I've enjoyed my whole life, I've been having very real, very disorienting, and very unsetteling ones. Last night I dreamt that I was standing over myself sleeping in bed, yelling at myself to wake up but I just wouldn't. It made me wonder what would have heppened if my alarm hadn't gone off and there wasn't anyone there to wake me up.
In all the others I have either been really depressed in the middle of a big group of very, flamboyantly happy people who just didnt want to talk to me, or I've had some weird condition or deformaty in a group of perfect people who keep making fun of me.
I dont know why I've been having these dreams, it's honestly the first time in my life that I've had bad dreams [that I can remember anyway] and It's really not something that has been making me feel exceptionally good in the mornings when I wake up.
The whole way home I couldnt do anything other then sit and wonder what's happening to us, is it really nessicary that we have to practise perciscion and dropping missiles at un-manned targets off the coast 'just incase'. And like they've been saying is it really true that now, more then ever we're in danger of being attacked. It's a horrible feeling having the bigger picture slowly getting closer and closer to our reality, it's definatley not something were going to be be renowned for later on down the time lime. I'm just hoping that after these tests are done I will never have to see these planes up close and personal again.
I haven't been having very much fun dreaming latley.
For the past two weeks instead tf the normally twisted and extremly surreal dreams that I've enjoyed my whole life, I've been having very real, very disorienting, and very unsetteling ones. Last night I dreamt that I was standing over myself sleeping in bed, yelling at myself to wake up but I just wouldn't. It made me wonder what would have heppened if my alarm hadn't gone off and there wasn't anyone there to wake me up.
In all the others I have either been really depressed in the middle of a big group of very, flamboyantly happy people who just didnt want to talk to me, or I've had some weird condition or deformaty in a group of perfect people who keep making fun of me.
I dont know why I've been having these dreams, it's honestly the first time in my life that I've had bad dreams [that I can remember anyway] and It's really not something that has been making me feel exceptionally good in the mornings when I wake up.