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"I'd like to love you//but my heart is a sore//I am, I am, I am so yours//Ka-boom, ka-boom//Ka-boom, ka-boom"
what i want more than anything is peace.You know , the kind of inner peace where nothing could bother you because god knows that today everything fucking bothered me. i think i cried more today during school and such than i have cried over the past few months .
i was saying this to jared a few nights ago but the more i think about it the more i try to understand why. but i really hate it when people add whatever to the end of what their talking about just to make it seem like they really dont care when its so obvious that they do care.
"Inhale, exhale, let's all hail"//It's a depraved new world"
people lie. people just suck because theyre always try to cover up how they really feel or what they really think. no one wants to grow the balls to step up to the truth of what theyre thinking or feeling or wanting. i just want someone to be fucking real but i think thats just a hopeless dream. i doubt anyone including myself knows enough about life or things in general to be real.
my days here are so manic. i will feel fine one day, completely stable, and then the next day i will be crashing to the ground and throwing up all my SOS's. i don't know how much longer i can go on this way. the highs and lows are cutting into me and the scars are getting deeper with each episode.
"You call it fake,//I call it, "good as it gets."//Nothing in this world is for real//Except you are for me and//I am so yours//Ka-boom ka-boom"
what i want more than anything is peace.You know , the kind of inner peace where nothing could bother you because god knows that today everything fucking bothered me. i think i cried more today during school and such than i have cried over the past few months .
i was saying this to jared a few nights ago but the more i think about it the more i try to understand why. but i really hate it when people add whatever to the end of what their talking about just to make it seem like they really dont care when its so obvious that they do care.
"Inhale, exhale, let's all hail"//It's a depraved new world"
people lie. people just suck because theyre always try to cover up how they really feel or what they really think. no one wants to grow the balls to step up to the truth of what theyre thinking or feeling or wanting. i just want someone to be fucking real but i think thats just a hopeless dream. i doubt anyone including myself knows enough about life or things in general to be real.
my days here are so manic. i will feel fine one day, completely stable, and then the next day i will be crashing to the ground and throwing up all my SOS's. i don't know how much longer i can go on this way. the highs and lows are cutting into me and the scars are getting deeper with each episode.
"You call it fake,//I call it, "good as it gets."//Nothing in this world is for real//Except you are for me and//I am so yours//Ka-boom ka-boom"