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hun back off you are a bitch and if you hate me so fucking much than why the hell take the time to look at my fucking lj and then commenting in it... that just means some where deep down in side ya still wanna love me but no it's not gonna happen bc im sick of you and your trash talk about people behind their backs! you know what all of my friends ... my good friends.... from california still care apparently you were one of them and jillian never said dont talkto ree about it so stop talking for her you think ur hot shit no orry ur just a pile of shit so stay the fuck off my lj! but of course that wont work bc you told me to leave you the fuck alone and then you have your brother come after me which is sad bc he is fucking 12.... have him do ur dirty work hahahaha.... now ur both blocked so i cant talk to you.... and then you comment on my lj..... wtf! i thought you never wanted to talk to me or see me or have anything to do with me ever again... hun sick to wtf you say cuz im really sick of ur shit! so stay ou tof my lj dont comment dont talk to me and thank god you cant call me! ... it's long distance! ... SCORE!!! now that im done in sulting you i have to say... THANK YOU TO ALL MY FRIENDS FOR SAYING WHAT YOU DID TO THE BITCH OF THE FUCKING CENTURY... SHE IS WORSE THAN MY MOTHER! HAHAHAHAHAHA! *OPPS WASN'T SUPPOSED TO INSULT HER OH WELL!* anyway thanks again to my friends you guys are amazing and i love you more than life it's self! oh and to the bitch.... i have to say this not just to save my ass but to make it clear i didnt use a fucking name for what i said so fuck off! and i am worried about her i know what the fuck it can do to you! all i said was a line to make sure she knew who it was about she wouldnt have even known you told me if you hadnt have said anything! you dumb bitch! you think ur sooo smart and amazing! ur a fucking idiot who needs better manners! and the whole thing about my sn ... my cousin started that and than i told a friend about it and she kinda made it famous and she got me to like it and so i stuck with it! you can kiss my ass if you think im that in love with food! you dont know anything about my past so dont think i did the whole cutting tid bit to be kool! i fucking started cuttign when i was 9! no one knew or saw it till a looooooooong time after that and than i decide and im going to quote tim with this " my life is an open book to my friends the ones who dont know my whole story haven't asked about it yet." you dont know alot about my past so dont go there with me... no one i knew was a cutter back when i started seeing as how it was random when i did it... yyou dont know the first thing about my past or why i was a cutter... my dad used to beat me when i was a kid up untill i left the state and moved away... he was always drunk when he did it too so he never remembered... and my mother was always out so she never saw or heard it... so when i started getting bruises where people could see them i'd make up a story or i'd just become really really clutzy so no one would know the truth about why they were there bc my dad threatened to kill me if i told anyone! I'm not a clutzy kid at least i wasnt as bad as i made myself ou tot be when i was a kid i started cutting to get rid of the pain i felt inside and to stop thinking about how he had hurt me it wasnt right that i did it but it helped! i never told anyone for a long time bc i wasnt sure how people would think of it... so i kept it to myself untilone day i found out of my extremely close friends was doing too... so i had a fight with him an di spilled my guts telling him everything.... than i was really pissed off a year later and i started doing it at school at lunch one day... 2 of my friends stoped me but once i got to my next class i tried it again well one of the girls i knew saw me and she freaked out and went to the counsiler.. from then on i was under watch but no one told my mom bc i begged them not to... finally it got to the point where it got soo bad that they told and i had to stop cuz i was being watched by my mom.....or so i thought she never really checked so i just kept on doing it finally when i was out at the movies with my church i decided i was done with the cutting bit bc for onc i was happy to be who i was where i was! and i had my firneds supporting me all the way! so now i havent done it for the last year and im getting better! see you didnt knwo half of that did you!? you dont know the last thing about me! i have friends out there people who care.. alll you have is cassie and marissa n im sry you cant take me talking shit about them even though the only one i say things about is marissa bc i heard her talking about me all the time! im not deaf or stupid! you know why i didnt wanna tell you all of that was bc i didnt want it getting back to marissa and cassie cuz you tell them everything! and i knew it would give them another reason to talk about me and it would probably give them the idea to do it... Oh and i dont like people hating me untill tey piss me off to the enth degree and i cant stand them anymore like you! so shut the fuck up grow the fuck up and get the fuck out of my fucking life like you wanted me to do! i dont like you or want you as me friend im sick of the crap you have put me through all you want it trouble and drama and it isnt worth my time!

thanks again to my friends! mwah* i love you all!
<3 samy <3

SARAH SHMERLING CAN GO TO HELL!