Dancing Through Life

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A friend of mine found my live journal online yesterday and called to say "So, I read your live journal...who the fuck is that guy?" I had to laugh a bit. To many, I come across as just your average vapid clubkid. They expect me to only know about fashion, house music, bar gossip, who slept with who, and where the next cool party will be. Don't

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I have often reflected on the topic you presented. While being gay has, of course, had its many challenges, it has almost been topped by having to struggle being a "closet nerd" as you put, or close to one. In other words, I followed a double double life (or would it be a triple life? bah). When I was younger, I was basically the only kid in school who got straight A's and actually enjoyed learning (I did have a class of only about 25 though). As time progressed, I learned to appreciate other qualities of life, but never could quite let go of my desire to KNOW everything.

My saving grace was meeting like minded people in high school, those who often far exceeded my nerdiness/intellectualism. After experiencing this, I realized that I turned out more balanced after all. Score. Now the only goal is maintaining said balance, or close to it at least.

In any case, I suppose that it was in some ways harder NOT to fit into a stereotype. People often hated me b/c I was both gay and (fairly) well-rounded. It's amusing how people feel comfortable with flamers...even though they are not "normal" they are not unexpected either and thus easy to categorize.

DO feel better soon, and continue to rest...