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i figured out a lot of crap yesterday. first of all, i have a problem with authority. now, i know that God is my authority, and He loves me and wants the best for me and always does what is best for me. therefore, i have no problem with acknowledging God's law's and boundaries set down before me. but other's, teachers and parents, honestly, i think i just like being myself, very free and relaxed and spontaneous a lot of times. i know that i am suppose to do what my authorities tell me to, so i almost always do, however, i also know that i am supposed to do it with a proper attitude.. this i don't do so much. hair regulations at my school, i think they're crap and i don't agree with them at all. i cut my hair when i have to, but i avoid it as long as possible and i don't like it when i get it cut. but like i said earlier God sets boundaries before me because He loves me and does everything for my best benefits.. one of these rules would be obeying your authorities with the proper heart attitude, so if i "follow His laws with a proper heart attitude" like i said earlier then wouldn't i also follow my authorities with the proper heart attitude? the answer is yes, but i wasn't. i am going to try and work on that and if any of you notice me being bitter about authority related things (parents, teachers, or church authorities) then please tell me and i would greatly appreciate it. so in order to get over my bitterness about getting my hair cut i came up with this theory, the sooner i get my hair cut, the sooner it can grow back. yeah, it sounds cheesy i guess, but it is true and it works for me so quiet please. okay, something else i realized. i've been wanting a certain... well, i've been wanting something to happen lately, some of you know what it is, but anyways, i've been asking God for this to happen, it's been selfish of me to ask constantly because i don't really need this for any other reason then pure desire. so, this thing isn't happening really.. i mean, not to the extent that i want at least. so i was somewhat down about it, but after thinking about it, i realized that the friends i have.. i have the greatest friends ever. and asking for that one other thing.. well, with my sweeeeeet friends i don't need that other thing. so i've decided to not worry about it and if God chooses to bless me in that situation then i will thank Him imensly for it, otherwise, no biggie. yup, so that is my decisions.. o yeah, i need to talk to some people about something too, but i don't want to until we're all together because it's kind of important... yeah, so i'll deal with that one later.