im done
well im single. imagine that. a whole year and then done. im quite confused but then im not which is confusing in itself. I should have known this would have happened. i went away to school. a relationship build on sex or physical reasons cannot sustain that. sorry it seems like my opinion all along seems to have been true. His dad called me. he wanted ot know what happened. what could i say? i told him what i knew nad then walked into the room adn when cindy started talking to me, i started crying and ran out of the room then reentered when i was calmer. it is unreal how much i miss him. how i think abt him constantly. i think i now believe even stronger in the whole
"u never know what u have until it is gone"
first kris now this. i am being forced to deal with both at the same time and now alone because no one here knows anything. jamie feels like crap bc they slipped and told him that i was single which i hadnt planned on telling him, so he fels guilty. even though it wasnt his fault. harry can think whatever he wants but i dont cheat on ppl. it never crossed my mind. i loved harry nad i hope one day he knows that but i have a feelig that it will do no good. idk. all he eer told me was hoe hot other girls were and then got a date to prom with another frind. why is it ok if he hangs out iwth her all the time but not ok for me to have guy friends? Jamie is a frind and that night i was standing barely insid ethe doorway. why is he being sucha child nad not able to trust me? i want ot not care, i want to be angry, but i cant. anger is an easier emotion but i cant. its not fair. im always still friends with ex's and i plan to do it again. i hope i can. i want ot still be able to help him. i dont care if he gets another girlfriend or hell if he sleeps with them. hes done it before. i just want to be able to make sure that he is ok.
i miss them both adn now im alone to deal with it. i wish she were here. she was always the one i could talk to and now... i have no one to help me that knows how. i find it ironic that the person i need her help with is the one who took her from me. its sad to think abyt but true. i diont want ot be ad at him but it is easier then beiung upset and having no one to be angry at but myself. all of them for being so stupid but its not fair. they were kids. well now they are adults, lets see how much they learn.
sadly, i still love him and always will. i kno this. but i think i am better off single, alone. maybe i can be who i used to be. i was never this weak. i lived without them before i can do it again. i just cant go home.
"u never know what u have until it is gone"
first kris now this. i am being forced to deal with both at the same time and now alone because no one here knows anything. jamie feels like crap bc they slipped and told him that i was single which i hadnt planned on telling him, so he fels guilty. even though it wasnt his fault. harry can think whatever he wants but i dont cheat on ppl. it never crossed my mind. i loved harry nad i hope one day he knows that but i have a feelig that it will do no good. idk. all he eer told me was hoe hot other girls were and then got a date to prom with another frind. why is it ok if he hangs out iwth her all the time but not ok for me to have guy friends? Jamie is a frind and that night i was standing barely insid ethe doorway. why is he being sucha child nad not able to trust me? i want ot not care, i want to be angry, but i cant. anger is an easier emotion but i cant. its not fair. im always still friends with ex's and i plan to do it again. i hope i can. i want ot still be able to help him. i dont care if he gets another girlfriend or hell if he sleeps with them. hes done it before. i just want to be able to make sure that he is ok.
i miss them both adn now im alone to deal with it. i wish she were here. she was always the one i could talk to and now... i have no one to help me that knows how. i find it ironic that the person i need her help with is the one who took her from me. its sad to think abyt but true. i diont want ot be ad at him but it is easier then beiung upset and having no one to be angry at but myself. all of them for being so stupid but its not fair. they were kids. well now they are adults, lets see how much they learn.
sadly, i still love him and always will. i kno this. but i think i am better off single, alone. maybe i can be who i used to be. i was never this weak. i lived without them before i can do it again. i just cant go home.