one year, 10 months
one week after a year of the accident. 10 months since our first date. 3 days shy of our official 10 months. i wish i could just pick up the phone and call him. but i cant. i love him, i htink. this is the closest thing i have ever had to love and i dont know what to do. thingfs have happened. i have dismissed a friend who was only trying to help me,even if there were other motives, he screwed himself over on that one. " He was in his right mind and knew we were there when he turned around" "I think he wanted it to happen but with a different outcome". sometimes i wonder. i told myself that if i was ever scared of him that i would end it bc that was not how i wanted to live. ewvery time he puts his arm around me i wonder if he will accidently hurt me. all i can doi any more is jump nad wonder what will happen next. i cant enjoy just running and playing w/o watching his every step. how can i tell him thius any more than i have hinted at? i want to stay together but things need to change. how can i explain this? i doint want to hurt him...