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Ya know how...
when you were younger..
you told your best friend(s)
everything..
well what happenes when you cant..tell them everything?
i mean its been a while since i actually have told them everything.
but there is one person i do tell everything..
maybe because i dont have any fear of him judging me..
even though he does
and he tells me what he thinks.
and its not even someone i dont know real well.
its ben
i tell him everything.
whatever im thinking
what everyone says or does or what i think about them.
he has the idea that someones only supposed to have 1 best friend so right now he has 3 friends.
im one of them.
i consider him one of my best friends..but of course the girls seem to fall ahead of him because i see them.
although i dont think i could ever tell katherine the things i tell ben..
and it just seems really hard to tell kelli things that i know she wont wanna hear.
ben has opinions on people hes never even met just because of me..
and he tells me what i need to hear..
like if im thinking about doing something i know is stupid...then he will tell me dont do that its stupid.
lol and well it helps.
the reason this all came about is because i started thinking, is there one person you tell everything to? and the first person always used to be kelli. but i know i dont anymore. i mean i tell her things that come up. but i just dont talk to her enough.
and then katherine...and well i might have before told her everything but i dont talk to her much anymore either. I also know she doesnt tell me everything. there are a lot of things she doesnt tell me.
but oh well...
so back to when i was wondering who i told everything to..i realized that i talk to ben everyday.
and when i talk to him i tell him about my day. and whats going on inside my brain at the time. then he tells me what happened in his day and what new songs he likes mainly lol. and well we help each other out....
and well...
ben really important to me.
and i just..wanted..to let that out somewhere.
i know you will be mad
when you were younger..
you told your best friend(s)
everything..
well what happenes when you cant..tell them everything?
i mean its been a while since i actually have told them everything.
but there is one person i do tell everything..
maybe because i dont have any fear of him judging me..
even though he does
and he tells me what he thinks.
and its not even someone i dont know real well.
its ben
i tell him everything.
whatever im thinking
what everyone says or does or what i think about them.
he has the idea that someones only supposed to have 1 best friend so right now he has 3 friends.
im one of them.
i consider him one of my best friends..but of course the girls seem to fall ahead of him because i see them.
although i dont think i could ever tell katherine the things i tell ben..
and it just seems really hard to tell kelli things that i know she wont wanna hear.
ben has opinions on people hes never even met just because of me..
and he tells me what i need to hear..
like if im thinking about doing something i know is stupid...then he will tell me dont do that its stupid.
lol and well it helps.
the reason this all came about is because i started thinking, is there one person you tell everything to? and the first person always used to be kelli. but i know i dont anymore. i mean i tell her things that come up. but i just dont talk to her enough.
and then katherine...and well i might have before told her everything but i dont talk to her much anymore either. I also know she doesnt tell me everything. there are a lot of things she doesnt tell me.
but oh well...
so back to when i was wondering who i told everything to..i realized that i talk to ben everyday.
and when i talk to him i tell him about my day. and whats going on inside my brain at the time. then he tells me what happened in his day and what new songs he likes mainly lol. and well we help each other out....
and well...
ben really important to me.
and i just..wanted..to let that out somewhere.
i know you will be mad