"Why?"

Nov 19, 2011 14:09


"You-" Words are failing you, coming out as jumbled noises. "You don't-.. You don't get to-"

"Get to love you?" His eyes pierce you, they make the ice you took years to build slowly melt away, like he never left, like he never left and took your damned life with him.

"Of course I don't." He pauses, thoughtful, licks his lips.  "But that doesn't mean you can't still love me."

"W-what, you-" Your feel tears pooling  on your eyelashes, threatening to fall and break your strong facade.  "You arrogant son of a bitch!"
His eyes widen in hurt, surprise. He opens his mouth to speak, but you beat him to the punch.
"What makes you t-think, that after you fuck off to New York and d-don't even tell me "goodbye" that I'd still.. l-love you?"

The tears are coming down in rivulets now, staining your red cheeks. You haven't cried since he left, since he took his things and hopped on a bus to New York for God knows what reason.

You said you never would, you promised yourself. And here you are, with him at your doorstep, hazel eyes and hippie hair and everything you loved about him, with tears sliding down your pale cheeks.

"Well, I-" He tries to say.

"Don't." You manage to get your voice to stop shaking. "Leave."

"But-"

"I said don't!" Your voice cracks, you're pathetic. You don't want him, ANYONE, to see you like this, so you push the door closed, against him.

You turn to go sit in your bedroom and cry your eyes out, but you hear the door being kicked open, hurried footsteps coming towards you. You look back, horrified, surprised.

He comes towards you in long strides, takes your jaw with his hands, locks your lips together with his. You're speechless, frozen still, while he nips hungrily down your jaw. You get chills down your spine, tears flowing wildly down your face.

"You d-didn't s-say goodb-bye." You choke out. "You just l-left m-me." Your heart is swelling, with sadness.. with joy? You don't know, but it hurts, like it's ripping you apart from the inside out.

"Why?" 

brendon/ryan, ryden, fanfiction

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