The November jitters...
They're starting. Im my stomach, I feel the queasy, not-quite-comfortable murmurs that November begins soon. They weren't there yesterday. Yesterday, I was prepared, ready to take on anything. But today? Well, today's a different story.
For one, I am beginning to realize today how much I have to do this month. Sure, I had more last year, but last year I also had greater motivation. This year I have just enough classes that I need to work hard, but not enough hard classes that the classes themselves provide sufficient motivation. It's gotta come from within, and I feel like I've forgotten how to do that.
Also, I just realized that I have resolutions due by Friday for one of the two MUN conferences I'll be attending during the upcoming month. I obviously won't have time to write them once the month starts, so I'd like to get them done today. However, they are one of many things that I should probably complete today (if I want them to get done at all), and I don't want to write them because only one covers a topic I have discussed before. The other two will require something like actual research -- ew...
And I guess I'm nervous. Last year on the edge of November, I didn't know what I was getting into. This year, I most certainly do, and it's starting to scare me. I keep telling myself that it shouldn't, but it still does.
It's not that I don't want to do NaNoWriMo -- I've been looking forward to it for months! It's just that I'm a little afraid of how it will go for me this year, and there will be no assurances until the month is over.
For one, I am beginning to realize today how much I have to do this month. Sure, I had more last year, but last year I also had greater motivation. This year I have just enough classes that I need to work hard, but not enough hard classes that the classes themselves provide sufficient motivation. It's gotta come from within, and I feel like I've forgotten how to do that.
Also, I just realized that I have resolutions due by Friday for one of the two MUN conferences I'll be attending during the upcoming month. I obviously won't have time to write them once the month starts, so I'd like to get them done today. However, they are one of many things that I should probably complete today (if I want them to get done at all), and I don't want to write them because only one covers a topic I have discussed before. The other two will require something like actual research -- ew...
And I guess I'm nervous. Last year on the edge of November, I didn't know what I was getting into. This year, I most certainly do, and it's starting to scare me. I keep telling myself that it shouldn't, but it still does.
It's not that I don't want to do NaNoWriMo -- I've been looking forward to it for months! It's just that I'm a little afraid of how it will go for me this year, and there will be no assurances until the month is over.