College.
Is anyone else completely weirded out by the fact that we're actually applying to college? Like this is the one thing our lives have been leading up to and hingeing on and now all of a sudden we're at the juncture before we knew we were? It kind of freaks me out. I wish that we could all go where we wanted to go and receive the education we need, and mostly that we would all be happy.
The thing is, my career path isn't one of academic rigor -- at least, it doesn't need to be. I could easily get a job as a non-honors English teacher and write on the side while going to a community collge. But I wouldn't be happy, not at all -- I've had it ingrained that college is the place to be once high school's done, and also it seems like something I need. I already feel sometimes like I'm ready to take that next big step and venture out into the world on my own...that's what college is. A place to find myself a bit more every day.
So while I could go easy with college if I wanted, there's no way that I'll ever want to do anything easy.
I think sometimes that's part of my problem, but most of the time it's part of my personality, so for now I'll let it be.
The thing is, my career path isn't one of academic rigor -- at least, it doesn't need to be. I could easily get a job as a non-honors English teacher and write on the side while going to a community collge. But I wouldn't be happy, not at all -- I've had it ingrained that college is the place to be once high school's done, and also it seems like something I need. I already feel sometimes like I'm ready to take that next big step and venture out into the world on my own...that's what college is. A place to find myself a bit more every day.
So while I could go easy with college if I wanted, there's no way that I'll ever want to do anything easy.
I think sometimes that's part of my problem, but most of the time it's part of my personality, so for now I'll let it be.