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I haven't updated in a while. (I just realized that.) I've been doing what feels like everything and nothing. I've been hanging out a lot with Rick and with my friends before I leave (in six days!) for Berkeley. If I haven't had a chance to see you recently, call me or email me or something so that I can see you before I go.
I feel oddly numb about this most of the time, but sometimes I realize for a second what I'll be missing and I get this terrible urge to cry, no matter what I'm doing. I'll have to explore that feeling more as I get closer to leaving, but for now I'm just hoping that it'll stay on the backburner long enough for me to enjoy these last few days of summer that count.
I'm realizing, also, that there are so many things I said I'd do this summer that I haven't yet. I'm trying to figure out if it's a bad thing or not.
I think I'm just waiting for the next thing to begin...if I can make it.
I feel oddly numb about this most of the time, but sometimes I realize for a second what I'll be missing and I get this terrible urge to cry, no matter what I'm doing. I'll have to explore that feeling more as I get closer to leaving, but for now I'm just hoping that it'll stay on the backburner long enough for me to enjoy these last few days of summer that count.
I'm realizing, also, that there are so many things I said I'd do this summer that I haven't yet. I'm trying to figure out if it's a bad thing or not.
I think I'm just waiting for the next thing to begin...if I can make it.