I'm pretty sure I forgot LJ existed for a little while.
I think I just made the longest subject line ever. Perhaps subject lines should not be entire sentences. It's true, though, I did forget about LJ. Then tonight, I was sitting and thinking about where I could talk about stuff. I didn't want to make a facebook note and that left little else. Then, suddenly, I remembered LJ, and it welcomed myself and my thoughts with open arms. Wow, this paragraph reminds me why I shouldn't be allowed to write after midnight; I get philosophic and poetic.
Life has been pretty normal since I posted back in October. Classes have been class like and Central is still one giant wind tunnel. Though, I have taken groups of students to a regional and state conference. Along with putting on a conference for 350 people. It was crazy, but fun looking back. At the last conference I'm pretty sure anything that could go wrong did at some point. All three of these conferences were connected to RHA, which is ruling my life this year. It's nice for the most part, but sometimes it makes a struggle bus run me over. Between RHA and classes I haven't had a break since Feb. 14th. I rarely got eight hours of sleep a night either. Tack on two back to back weekends of conferences that I'm in charge of to a certain extent and it got hard. I was so exhausted and stressed that I had a mini mental breakdown Wednesday night when I was doing a class project and the computer I was working on died, thus erasing my work. I literally walked back to my room from the lab in tears and by the time I got to my room I was so frustrated and worked up that I was hiccuping.
I realized that I need to eliminate some stress from my life. I love RHA, though, and feel like I can't abandon it. So after talking to people and thinking about how it's the conferences that give me stress, I made a decision. I am going to leave my position as CC of RHA and run for President next year. It's odd to think that moving up in a organization will allow me less stress. Plus, I can still go to conferences; I just won't be in charge.
Other than that mess, things are going well right now. I feel like with the new decade I found a new lease on life. I don't worry as much or let things bother me as much. I feel good about where I am in life. It's like, for the first time, I'm content with who I am and where I'm at in my life. It's difficult to explain, but it was a quite sudden change. Suddenly I realized that while you should do your best at everything, if it's not going to be in a history book it's not worth worrying about. I also realized that it's okay to shoot for a career that everyone thinks I'm crazy to go for. I also realize that if I don't ever get that job, well, that's okay too. There are plenty of other things that I wouldn't mind doing as a career. I'm probably not explaining this new view on life very well. In short, I feel content with who I am, what I'm doing, where I'm at in life and wherever I'm headed. I also know who I can count on and who I care about, as well as knowing who cares about me. Frankly, it's a good feeling and a nice way to see things. I just wish I had realized all of this sooner.
Again, I really shouldn't be allowed on the internet past midnight. Also, I added a list of songs that kinda helped me find this new feeling towards life.
Ordinary Miracle - Sarah McLachlan
Dancing Through Life - Wicked
Bless the Broken Road - Rascal Flatts
Smile (Charlie Chaplin version) - Glee
Once Upon a Time in New York City - Oliver & Company
True Colors - Cyndi Lauper (though I have the Glee version)
100 Years - Five for Fighting
Little Wonders - Rob Thomas
Angels & Heroes - Brian Littrell
Plus several pieces of classical music, movie soundtracks and musicals. But I thought I would stop boring you now.
Good night!!
Life has been pretty normal since I posted back in October. Classes have been class like and Central is still one giant wind tunnel. Though, I have taken groups of students to a regional and state conference. Along with putting on a conference for 350 people. It was crazy, but fun looking back. At the last conference I'm pretty sure anything that could go wrong did at some point. All three of these conferences were connected to RHA, which is ruling my life this year. It's nice for the most part, but sometimes it makes a struggle bus run me over. Between RHA and classes I haven't had a break since Feb. 14th. I rarely got eight hours of sleep a night either. Tack on two back to back weekends of conferences that I'm in charge of to a certain extent and it got hard. I was so exhausted and stressed that I had a mini mental breakdown Wednesday night when I was doing a class project and the computer I was working on died, thus erasing my work. I literally walked back to my room from the lab in tears and by the time I got to my room I was so frustrated and worked up that I was hiccuping.
I realized that I need to eliminate some stress from my life. I love RHA, though, and feel like I can't abandon it. So after talking to people and thinking about how it's the conferences that give me stress, I made a decision. I am going to leave my position as CC of RHA and run for President next year. It's odd to think that moving up in a organization will allow me less stress. Plus, I can still go to conferences; I just won't be in charge.
Other than that mess, things are going well right now. I feel like with the new decade I found a new lease on life. I don't worry as much or let things bother me as much. I feel good about where I am in life. It's like, for the first time, I'm content with who I am and where I'm at in my life. It's difficult to explain, but it was a quite sudden change. Suddenly I realized that while you should do your best at everything, if it's not going to be in a history book it's not worth worrying about. I also realized that it's okay to shoot for a career that everyone thinks I'm crazy to go for. I also realize that if I don't ever get that job, well, that's okay too. There are plenty of other things that I wouldn't mind doing as a career. I'm probably not explaining this new view on life very well. In short, I feel content with who I am, what I'm doing, where I'm at in life and wherever I'm headed. I also know who I can count on and who I care about, as well as knowing who cares about me. Frankly, it's a good feeling and a nice way to see things. I just wish I had realized all of this sooner.
Again, I really shouldn't be allowed on the internet past midnight. Also, I added a list of songs that kinda helped me find this new feeling towards life.
Ordinary Miracle - Sarah McLachlan
Dancing Through Life - Wicked
Bless the Broken Road - Rascal Flatts
Smile (Charlie Chaplin version) - Glee
Once Upon a Time in New York City - Oliver & Company
True Colors - Cyndi Lauper (though I have the Glee version)
100 Years - Five for Fighting
Little Wonders - Rob Thomas
Angels & Heroes - Brian Littrell
Plus several pieces of classical music, movie soundtracks and musicals. But I thought I would stop boring you now.
Good night!!