I'm sad.
I've just been really anxious and miserable today. I'm really tired from this term's marking and there's no way I can take a holiday now - still in the middle of teaching and have to keep up with my research. On top of which
- it's freezing and dark by 4pm
- my housemates keep putting the heating on, without which I am miserable, but with which, I am terrified of our energy bills
- Bibi flareup. Vet tomorrow evening. Housemate kindly driving us.
- Was supposed to get a parcel delivered and instead got an email saying we tried to deliver and you weren't in, we left a card. No and no - I was here, no card. And it goes on to say that if we cannot deliver tomorrow we will charge you large amounts. Ring this number - of course the office is closed by now. Have filled out complaint form online.
- I have no food in and completely failed to organize myself to shop.
- I kept getting distracted by stupid stuff and therefore didn't finish work till really late.
- I miss Sam so badly I could cry. In fact I have been.
I don't know. I'm tired, I'm sad, it's winter, I'm worried about money, I have way too much on my plate but can't really afford to quit any of it. Though I did see something pleasing tonight. A scraggy black stray cat lives around here that I haven't seen for a while and was wondering if he was okay. Bibi was glaring at the back door and making horrible noises - at first, it appeared, at her reflection, but it turned out the big black cat was sitting on the patio, bold as brass, staring at her with his yellow moon eyes. He looks pretty good, actually. Probably because he gets a lot of leftovers, including from this house! He seems to have lived here forever and obviously knows about traffic and such.
Oh well. Maybe tomorrow...will be a better day. I get paid tomorrow for one thing. And will get some advice on Beebs....though I think we've pretty much exhausted all the vet's ideas at this point!
- it's freezing and dark by 4pm
- my housemates keep putting the heating on, without which I am miserable, but with which, I am terrified of our energy bills
- Bibi flareup. Vet tomorrow evening. Housemate kindly driving us.
- Was supposed to get a parcel delivered and instead got an email saying we tried to deliver and you weren't in, we left a card. No and no - I was here, no card. And it goes on to say that if we cannot deliver tomorrow we will charge you large amounts. Ring this number - of course the office is closed by now. Have filled out complaint form online.
- I have no food in and completely failed to organize myself to shop.
- I kept getting distracted by stupid stuff and therefore didn't finish work till really late.
- I miss Sam so badly I could cry. In fact I have been.
I don't know. I'm tired, I'm sad, it's winter, I'm worried about money, I have way too much on my plate but can't really afford to quit any of it. Though I did see something pleasing tonight. A scraggy black stray cat lives around here that I haven't seen for a while and was wondering if he was okay. Bibi was glaring at the back door and making horrible noises - at first, it appeared, at her reflection, but it turned out the big black cat was sitting on the patio, bold as brass, staring at her with his yellow moon eyes. He looks pretty good, actually. Probably because he gets a lot of leftovers, including from this house! He seems to have lived here forever and obviously knows about traffic and such.
Oh well. Maybe tomorrow...will be a better day. I get paid tomorrow for one thing. And will get some advice on Beebs....though I think we've pretty much exhausted all the vet's ideas at this point!